Heightened feelings sometimes hurt my psyche. I often think about how I don't like feeling so much in just one second, you know. Sometimes I want to wall myself off and be a normal person. Become the person I was before I was into meditation. Meditation has totally exposed me to the world around me. It's scary. And only physical activity allows me to distract myself without losing my meditation and concentration. Then I turn my attention to my body, muscles, and pain. I even signed up for Pure Body Pilates with a real Pilates instructor so I can constantly feel the support, hear the person's voice, and stop being full of thoughts. It relaxes me. What can you say about your ways?

I really understand that feeling of being an alien on Earth. The manifestation is more psychological than sensory with me, though. I understand the bit about being fidgety, too. Sometimes, it seems like I just need to scratch an itch on my brain.

I think it just falls to whether someone takes time to get the pleasure (or pain) out of every moment, every smell, every sight, every sound, every touch or waft of warm breeze on our skin, etc., while some are too busy to notice. It doesn't take much concentration to notice fully what's going on around ourselves, just time and focus.

As someone who makes my living off of people's emotions and feelings, it seems all it takes is to suggest to people to clear their minds of all other matters, and focus on what is going on at that moment. Seems to do the trick for most folks.

We only live once, so we might as well get as much pleasure out of it as possible.

But you make it all seem so poetic. I have always thought I had heightened senses and sometimes to extremes. Led in paths once that do not exist or are only make believe, I am aware of the realities of it even as I became a shattered watcher of events. I remember the time while working on a furnace with others my inner voice said "if you do not move now that SOB will stab you through the eye with a 6 inch screwdriver." That was when I moved and also when he slipped and his hand ended up where my head was. I'm not blinded and I lived to another day.

Very recently a co-worker told me that Midwest had called and Tony finished fixing my truck. I can go pick it up now. OK, but everyone I work with knows I do not have a truck. I have a car. So, I went and picked it up so extremely happy that I live in my reality and not that of others.

Leaving religion behind nearly 4 years has heightened my senses, etc. I appreciate nature and other stuff more. Not to mention they have been a little happier.

Thanks for sharing. Never participated in Yoga or Meditation. I’m confident it brings happiness, joy and a heightened awareness etc., for those whom participate on a regularly basis or why do they do ? I did enjoy the nature walks and a handful of Volksmarches that I participated in Germany while stationed there. Which, now based on reading your post and reminiscing back, I can only submit to myself, why am in not doing that now? Hmmmm, we have a 50 mile, bike or walking trail from Williamsburg to Richmond that I have not taken advantage of. I can attest to the running I had to do for about 22 years in the US Army , I disliked very much; a dreading you might say, but i always a feeling of Euphoria afterwards. It kinda got the blood flowing and senses stimulated and provided much pleasure upon completion…I must re- contemplate my past experience and current existence on this great rock that we all share and get motivated to do something that I will benefit from and perhaps enjoy… Walking here we come… Thanks for your story you shared ….Delbert.

more my style I reckon.

You say you dont belong on this planet... As an observation i would disagree... You seem most alive when you are in the outdoors.. Being part of and one with nature ... It is the "others" that dont belong... They create artificial environments, surrounding themselves with a sterle existence, never understanding why they feel incomplete.... Diving is when i feel the most "alive".... Weightless in a liquid environment from which all life came.... Hike/dive alone.... The "others" are a distraction

I find that the more primitive my surroundings, the more attuned my sensory perception becomes. Urban-Industrial settings seem to dull the senses.

“I have a rhythmic body and hands. Men say I'm the best lover they ever had. The mind is the best sex organ.” Well this really got me interested