Reading the bible carefully, can't help but say: what a load of crap this is!

I know the moment I stopped believing in god. I was going through a difficult time in my life and had become very depressed. I had turned to god to ask for help and felt nothing in response. It felt like no one was listening (which was correct). I forced myself to ask if I really and truly believed in a god and the answer was no. I immediately felt a weight lifted from me.

I did remain somewhat agnostic for a short time but eventually settled into atheism. That was about 15 years ago.

After I left my parents home at 19, I didn’t think much about the religion I was raised in. I’d discovered alcohol, drugs and sex, and church didn’t fit into that mix. In 1990 I went through a tough divorce, and I lost my son in a car wreck. I couldn’t cope and turned to the religion I was raised in. I’ll try to give the short version. My prayers weren’t answered, so I blamed myself thinking I wasn’t good enough. Read the Bible cover to cover so I could be more godly. It was a different book than I thought from what I’d been taught. I dropped Christianity and described myself as “spiritual not religious”. That didn’t last. I finally realized that I believed in some made up god, and let it all go. I’m now a happy atheist.

my faith was always tenuous I suppose. I saw great generosity often enough, but not god. the "don't ask all the questions" aspect was kinda twerpy. i'm just not geared for it.

The nail in the coffin for me was, reading the bible cover to cover at the age of 15. I stopped believing in christianity. Then I became a pagan for 23 + years. I was an agnostic for a few years, before becoming an atheist. Now an agnostic atheist.

That's a tough call. It was either the consistent hypocrisy and phoniness of so many believers accompanied at the same time by getting to know so many non-believers that I admired and that said things making way more sense than the churches on so many issues....