This is really sad,i don't even know what to say but just hope for the best you really are going through a lot

Sending big hugs your way. Everything you wrote is very relatable to this group. I'm glad you have this place to write about your sorrow and pain of losing your hubby.

Completely understandable that you feel like you've lost it all. It will take time for your heart to heal and you are under no obligation to try to hurry that process along. Be kind - and take care of - yourself.

Your response is completely understandable. I have nothing left of the life I shared with my 2nd wife but memories. The house, the parrots, even my son, are no more. All that survives is the car I purchased 2 months before her death. Of course it comes to that eventually anyway in most cases; we don't like to think how tenuous the connections we have to this world are, but I know that a decade after my passing it will be for all practical purposes like I was never here.

But here's the thing: nothing can take your memories from you and if you're careful what you dwell on and how you dwell on it, those can be nothing but good.

That is very tough, but we all at some time have faced the hard reality of losing partners and beloved pets....the fact that Mick was your husband’s cat kept that connection between you alive. Now that, sadly, is no longer there, that tenuous thread is gone, and you must feel that you’ve lost the last link with him. You are the survivor and as such you can keep the memories alive in your heart, it’s how we manage to keep going, by remembering all the love and special times. The memory is very selective, we tend to remember the good times, and highlights of our shared lives, and this you must try to focus on. You have moved to a new place hundreds of miles, and in a different country, but don’t say why. Do you have any family or friends living near to you in Texas? You really need to get out and about and try to rebuild your life, whether or not you choose to have another cat, is something you may like to do or not, but it’s essential that whilst keeping the memories of your husband and the cats alive, you don't let that stop you from moving forward without them. We all owe it to ourselves to try to be happy in our new state of singledom, it’s what we would wish if it happened in reverse, and our partners were the ones left alone. My heart reaches out to you, my message is, be strong, and know that we care. Hopefully you do have friends or family near to you, it’s essential to have support.

There are no easy answers. One day at a time! Hang in there, keep us posted.