I'm sorry, but I really need to vent:

My grandma is sick, hospitalized and just over 90. I'm attempting to force myself into a mindset where I can deal with the inevitable.

Truth is, I know I'll be affected either way. I've lost friends, a lover and a family member, so I know the chances of getting depressed (given my predisposition for it) are great. Even medicated as I am, I feel the weight pulling me down. However, the last thing I wanna do is make the loss more difficult for my family.

I lack experience due to my age, so any wisdom you folk are willing to share, I'd appreciate it.

In advance, thank you and I wish you a great day.