I was a christian fundi for 10 years. Actually a cult for 10 years. I have been an Atheist for almost two. I am still trying to get christian crap out of my system still. I was very dependent on god for everything to the point that I didn't even trust myself. Growing up we were never tought critical thinking or learning how to navigate in the natural world. I had no roll models or anyone to look up too. Just stay out of jail get a job and don't smoke crack. Religion is all my family cares about. Not worldy success, not education, politics, investing, nothing. Just trust and wait on a god. What real winners in my family. Anyway, I am trying to get this out of my system. I do own a home, work, travelled, but want more but am stuck in this bad habit. For years the only thing that was important to me was getting to heaven and the end-times.