Todays experiences will reverberate in your soul forever,almost a "Trial by fire", sleep aids may help to get rest at night,that's when our minds play back the days events.....

On the subject of preachers at funerals. I attended on a few years back that was held at the funeral home. The first preacher is a very kindly soul who spent time reflecting on the young woman's life, her devotion to her kids, and how her memory can serve us all in practicing a good life. A few references to heaven and the lord's welcoming embrace into the kingdom of heaven. Okay, sounds good enough to me considering that the next preacher strode up to the front and unleashed a "you never know when God will call you....if you have sin, you will be cast into the fiery pit....save yourselfs for death is a thief in the night....you are all sinners until you say the name of the lord as your personal savior......." This went on and on for ten minutes accompanied by thumping of the bible and loud breaths and pants of exhortations. Fun stuff.....lol....By the time he was done, I had forgotten why we were at the funeral home.

We often learn things about our loved ones and elders at their funerals that we never knew while they were living. Hopefully you recognized some positive characteristics that you carry with you as well, and can perpetuate them going forward, as a way as imitating immortality, and/or passing along positive personality traits to the next generation. Funerals are very helpful in the grieving process, even when relationships are fractional, happy, healthy or dysfunctional. Glad your family included you, and recognized your need to grieve as well. Thanks for sharing the experience with us.

What is it they say? When one door closes another door opens. I hope this leads you on a path of new beginnings with your family. Wishing you love, happiness and healing. My condolences.