A month and a half is not long. Grieve. The loss of love is painful. Knowing it was part of your life is joyful and will get you through

Join the widowed group here at ag.com. You'll find LOTS of people to sound off to, whenever you need.

You were correct, at least by my experience. We call thise grief crashes "waves". They are nearly constant immediately after the loss (less than 2 months certainly counts), but tend to space out more with time. It's been twelve years since I lost my husband to cancer. In my case, playing "Dark Side of the Moon" for my son ripped me pretty hard. I can say, though, that many memories now make me smile instead of cry.

So sorry. My wife up and left after 36 yrs. Her mom died and that changed her drastically.
I hope you get over the pain.

Oh no! I'm so soooo sorry. I want you to know I do feel your pain. It's wrenching. I never knew what that feeling or mourning REALLY is. My ex ((Crying))..my love, was shot and died 5 months ago. I rarely drink and I had to drink in the morning to get thru initially. It still very painful at times but they pass ...just lean into it..feel it...its a process... ?

I'm sorry you're hurting. I hope the pain changes into sweet sorrow and stays manageable.

I’m so very sorry. Loss is never easy, and grief can’t be rushed.
I lost my beloved youngest brother to brain cancer almost 3 years ago; he was 49 and left behind 5 children. It’s taken this long to recall him without just losing it. Definitely a process I was not prepared for, in spite of my work as a nurse and with other losses. It knocked me down.
Sending hugs to you and others here dealing with loss. Be kind to yourself.

My instinct is to offer a hug and a listening ear.

This breaks my heart!

If only I could make you feel him so you know he's still with you. Because as long as you remember him, everything about him that made you love him, keeps him closer to you. He's still with you.

Talk to him. Channel him into your mind and heart.

I wish I could hug you. Cry.. let the pain out, but breathe because you both were gifted with one another. ❤??

It will probably take about a year before you start feeling normal again, don't rush it. I did and made some pretty bad mistakes. You will never forget your time together, just remember the good times, omit the bad and eventually you will eventually feel whole again.

I'm sorry to hear that your upset please take care.

You said " my ex", so are you widowed or did you divorce before he died?

I'm sorry. You are fortunate to have had true love while it lasted.

I know you have a lot of good memories. Enjoy them.

I'm so sorry! Of course you're still raw & tearful, it's hardly been any time at all.