I've been being less and less in the closet on Facebook about my atheism lately and taking a stronger stance against things like homophobia and racism in the name of religion. I'm working up to being authentic and out.

I got my hair done yesterday by an old friend from my christian days who is a professional hairstylist. She's pregnant with her fourth kid in four years so she's doing the mom thing more than hair right now but she made a special exception for me and it's a lot cheaper for me.

However, last night, she took the chance while she had me hostage in the chair to talk to me about religion and my walk. It's like, I wasn't about to startle the person with scissors to my head so I didn't tell her I'm an atheist now. I just talked about the Depression and such and tried to side-step a lot of her probes but it's just like...now I have to find a new hairstylist.

I'm just mad and annoyed about this. One, she's really good and I love her work. Two, how dare she hold me hostage in the damn chair like it was nothing. It was a trap and that pisses me off. She also worked in A LOT of talk about homeopathy and strict gender roles and homophobia. I'm no longer comfortable giving her my money. :/

She didn't attack me but it's like, I'm clinically depressed right now - I don't have the emotional capacity to explain WHY I'm an atheist now, I just need acceptance of it while I get better. She wasn't going to understand that. And I know she was coming from a place of love: She genuinely believes I'm in danger so she said something. But that means very little to me.