I have always been the red devil of the family, not the black sheep, ha ha. I was everyone's scapegoat, so once I grew up and especially after about 40, I just pretty much told them to fuck off, you can't mix oil and water. For all the claims made by the religious people, my observation has been that usually what they try to assert most emphatically, is exactly the opposite of what they are really doing. A lot of people get uptight when you mention Freud, I have read a lot of his work, NOT other people's opinions of his writings, and a lot of it gave me some good insight into the craziness in my family. And the problem was, I would see through all their bull shit and call them out on it.

I am just rambling at the moment, but getting old is kind of like getting into this wooden boat, grabbing the oars, and heading out to sea, then discovering that the damn thing leaks, and one must bail water, more and more as time goes by. I hope Nietzsche was wrong about his concept of eternal recurrence, that would really suck!

On a positive note, with this covid shit going on, I have got a lot work done on an art project really rolling. The project I am working on now is probably the most ambitious I have ever done, it involves both 3D art and programming, using Blender. I really hope our scientists can come up with a vaccine for this covid shit soon though, one can get pretty maniacal just thinking about the whole situation.