Knowing........... what do you do with it.......? Once you know........... That knowledge, truth, and certainty.......! What you'll do to seek it out but then gain it yet now to only wish for amnesia, the suffering of the mind imprisoned within it's created pain now looking for escape. Clinging on to information that you can tell noone is only poison for the brain, killing it from the inside. From the outside looking in i couldn't see the signs because i didn't know now I'm on the inside looking out i can see noone else has learned. From the bowl of poison knowledge i have eaten now so too my mind seeks a way out. A door never ment to be opened is opened and now can never close.
Try just not to think about it. It will just keep you up at night. Have your doctor give you something to help you sleep. It will be easier to keep your mind on something else in the daytime. Keep it simple.
Thank you for this feed back, this is not necessarily an issue I have yet more so a state of mind. My mind moves at 99% the speed of light so it's always something I learn that I probably otherwise shouldn't. How did you know I wasn't getting good sleep, over the past 8 days I've gotten about 4 hours of sleep. I didn't think that statement said I wasn't getting sleep lol. If I had a doctor I probably would ask for something like that!