I see people suffering in the countries I toured. Was I just lucky to be me? Why would god high 5 me and step back on other's? Does suffering build character? Who cares! People need real help and love and compassion. Why should they have to cry and beg and make promises. Damn.
I don't reject the idea, I just don't believe in it. Why? Stupid question. It makes no reasonable sense. I don't believe in god for the same reason I don't believe in the tooth fairy. What I DO believe in are facts. Carl Sagan said it better than anyone. Extraordinary claims demand extraordinary evidence. Reality and the scientific method are my guiding pillars.
It just makes no sense to me. It is the way my brain is wired. I am trying to not to judge other beliefs as much. I don't understand at all why people believe in Gods. I have many theories but the fact is I am in the minority. That doesn't change my mind in any way but it is a fact. I am strongly outnumbered. It is possible I am missing something. Somebody must be wrong.... The funny thing is I practice some Buddhism and I pray because it makes me feel better. I don't ever think the gods are listening. It does tap into a part of me that is calming. I need all the calm I can get! I have a little meditation station with Hindu Gods and a Buddha. Maybe that is why so many people believe. It makes them feel better and questioning the community that makes them feel better is absurd to them.
For me personally it's not so much the ideas or teachings, I don't buy all of that, yes, but it
s more about the individuals...the practicers rather than what is practiced. My Granny was religious and she would NEVER have in a million years picketed the funeral of a Gay solider. or been involved with anyone who would bomb an Abortion Clinic. her Jesus helped the poor healed the sick and fed the hungry. Her Jesus didn't go around saying God hates fags or I hate you because you're a man who loves a man. And it's this idea that we should have bibles in public schools and make a law at the top level banning abortion or gay marriage. They have no argument against gay marriage other than they think their bible says so. there's no legal reason I digress. There is way too much hypocrisy and the list goes on and on why I call bullshit on religion.
For me the pendulum has now swung in both directions. I spent more than 40 years very active in a demanding church and held leadership positions. Then, in January of 2014, my wife and I abruptly resigned our membership due to finding on YouTube that the history claims of the church were a mountain of lies. My eyes were also opened to the fact that the entire Noah story is incomprehensible and impossible. So, for the past few years I've concluded, 'There is no one God, but there does seem to be great evidence for a universal consciousness in the Universe. Then... a few months ago... I read the first two books by Robert Monroe, and the "Journeys Out of the Body" by William Buhlman, and I was blown away. Finally, something that makes perfect sense and clearly answers almost all of the questions I had. The great thing was, I was able to read the book "Journeys Out of the Body" without having to spend a penny... as that it's free, online, as a PDF. So, I still don't believe there's just one 'God', but now it makes perfect sense that we are progressing through dimensions, and we're in this one right now because it is the most dense and has the lowest frequency, and are here to learn. (Damned cool book.)
First is the evidence thing, of which there is none, and second is when you realize that religions were made up by humans for a purpose. That purpose was for early state societies to exert a moral code, or a means of social control over the population.
In my late 30’s I began a degree in Theology. I had been a “born again” protestant christian for about 20 years, with a childhood background in catholicism.
My aim in my degree was to major in Pastoral care and counselling with a view to working in that kind of area. I did finish the major studies which I loved and learned more about my self than I thought possible. However I came unstuck when I began on biblical studies.
I discovered that the bible and Jesus simply do not stand up under the rigours of academic enquiry. The bible and the life of the christ are based on myth at best and hearsay/outright lies at worst.
I realised I could not believe this stuff and maintain my personal integrity at the same time. I entered possibly the the worst period of my life, it felt like an abyss. Fortunately it only took about 6 mths to work my way through it and I have been an atheist for more than 20 years now.