I recently met someone from this site and I ruined it. I was into him immediately, so much it consumed my thoughts. Hes a really good person and intelligent, mature. I hooked up with him very early. it was my decision and I enjoyed it. But when it came time to hang out again he wanted to do the same. I hesitated....eventually I cancelled out plans telling him that I had made a mistake and initiated sex too soon and just wanted to focus on having a friendship first. Then he ended it telling me he didn't want to go down that road. I know he was into me. I know i fucked it up. I know i wish I could go back and do it differently. I did send him one last email trying to tell him exactly how I felt about him and apologizing for making things weird and being indecisive. Now there's nothing left to do. I don't want to forget about him even though I know I have to. His name and face still ring in my ears. What do I do?