What I didn't know, was that growing up in Southwest Missouri and a red State part of the country, my views and anti authority sentiments didn't win me much appreciation around all the rednecks, shitkickers, and general white trash pieces of human garbage...If I had to describe the town of Sparta, it has that kind of charm that a dumpster fire has if that makes any sense...lol
I've always gotten myself into trouble when I make friends, I have the tendency to be very blunt and not very sympathetic to ignorant people's feelings. It's kind of hard to feel sorry for any of them, they are the reason Trump is in office right now, so... Fuck them!
I am an ex Dilaudid and heroin addict, and now I'm in recovery and I'm taking Subutex. That doesn't stop me from being a walking news headline. Where I differ is that I dispise NA and AA or any 12-step base program, and I refuse to believe that after I quit the worst of my addiction, that I'm still going to be an addict the rest of my life...
I got some shocking news for all you NA/AA cult junkies, I still drink alcohol occasionally I still smoke cannibas occasionally, and I'm not such a fucking week cretin that I have relapsed back into hard drugs or the needle, so all that nonsense about how you have to stay 100% sober it's complete bullshit. It might apply to people who are fooling themselves and never wanted to quit in the first place, but are doing so in order to make loved ones happy or to impress people. If I was being truly honest I never really wanted to quit drugs, I had to because the interference from law enforcement caused me way too many heartbreaks. Plus going to prison twice really sucks!
Now, that's not to say that if the 12-step is working for you individually and you actually genuine about staying clean then more power to you I hope you keep working the steps. I just have met too many fake phony who want to be sober living, but only as a justification to judge others, and to kiss ass to people they want to get favors from...
The bottom line is, I wrote all this on my body fee so I can be upfront and honest with whoever I meet for the first time. I'm so sick of steaks Sony's and charlatans pretending to be decent people, but as soon as anyting that resembles a personality of a real life person starts coming through, they creep off, like the non committing assholes that they are.
Just to be honest, I'm on the back burner of a bad bad recovery, I was stabbed in the back by the person that I loved more than anything in the world. Let's just say she made up a story about me, that destroyed my reputation and the day after she kicked me out of the house she already had somebody else over there. It was there I realized she had done nothing but lie to me for the last few years. I let my guard down and I paid the price. So that's why I'm I'm telling you guys everything up front.
Listen, I'm a really nice guy, super laid-back, I can go with the flow on anything. I hate drama I love to read, I love to learn things, and I can't stand people who waste their entire day fucking with Facebook. If you're into hanging out or possibly dating somebody or even hooking up with somebody who is brutally honest can be a lot of fun and doesn't judge people at all, then hit me up for real. I had it with trying to pretend that I'm something, I'm not, to get people interested in me, so if you are a unique non-comformist, message me. If not, just leave me the fuck alone, and go about your day...
Before I forget, I understand that now we are kind of in a society where the me-too movement is finally possible. So if you want my full name, and to check my background to feel safe, I will not be offended just ask me. I grew up around women, and there's nothing I hate worse then a man who beats women, or is a sexual predator. Ladies, most of my life I have been a full-on feminist, way before it was acceptable to talk about this stuff. Just ask any of the women I know in my life and they will tell you...

One Love......

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(also, I'm interested in getting close to guys who are interesting as well. I haven't taken that step over to being bisexual, I'm just kind of curious right now. So any dudes out there interested, just go at it slow don't approach me like you would someone you're trying to date. Let's be friends first and I'll see how it makes me feel later...)