I'm unsure how necessary it is find a life partner.
I also am romantic and believe it could possibly enhance my life.
I got lots of student debt and feel I wasted it because in May 2015 to September 2015 I had brain cancer, brain surgery and radiation.
I got anxiety, depression and I prefer dating men to women, but open to both.
I am afraid of being yelled at for things beyond my control and being abused and manipulated.
I had my life threatened by a few men and one actually almost followed through with killing me. I need constant reassurance.
I pride myself on my independence, since I am good at raising my children on welfare and for a short time after college and a failed abusive engagement, I worked minimum wage living in my low income housing area.
I have tried driving lessons many times, but was too nervous to get more than a beginner license.
My son has Autism. My daughter has a learning disability and anxiety.
I have a brain injury from my surgery but repeatedly get rejected from being accepted to ODSP.
I take comfort in nihilism.
I enjoy simple things like sunshine, sticky snow for making things, slippery snow for tobogganing and skiing, a warm rain to walk in or cold rain after a super hot day to walk in. Puddles. Swimming. Reading. Music. Ska, punk, reggae, rock, rockabilly, metal, EDM, Trap, hip hop, rap and I do enjoy pop and some mumble rap, but mostly mumble rap sucks.
I do like some country, even some new country, but a lot of country sucks, even listening to good country sometimes is annoying.
Classical and opera is pretty cool.
I like Anime, crime based tv series, mob movies, some old cowboy movies, campy silly shows and movies, murder mysteries, adult cartoons and kid's cartoons, comedy, Days Of Our Lives was my favorite show when I had cable but now I only have Netflix and YouTube.
I pretty much or listen to or read anything.
I am very interested in politics and history.
For many years I had my head in the sand but I have over the past few years become an extremely left socialist communist.
Centrists and right wingers are a turn off.
I have very little hope of finding the one.
Just mostly using this website as another means to scream into the void.