QUITTING...smoking (1 MONTH!!!) and my job (tomorrow).
So after some careful consideration I'm taking another "leap of faith"...mostly in myself and my instincts...and not returning to work tomorrow.
Why? Because the job is a toxic environment in too many ways. Since November, I've been in a vicious cycle of getting deathly ill, taking several days off, then returning to work just to get sick again.
Since November I've quit smoking twice, both times because I was just too ill to smoke. Bronchitis, the flu and the worst lupus outbreak I've ever experienced have taken me to the nearest to death I want to be two more times in less than four months.
The physical toxicity is due to a lot of factors: high turn over, people demanding to work sick, poor HVAC maintenance...most recently food rotting in both refrigerators.
I won't even go into some other serious bad management decisions, or lack thereof, (here, anyway) but, since I'm somewhat recovered and able to effectively look for something else it's time to break the cycle. It's better to be destitute than dead.
This is the beginning of my letter of immediate resignation...from the job but, as depressing as things may be, not from life. This is the best forum I have for sharing this...I may even make a long overdue AA visit...but if you have any "strength, experience and hope" tales or advice, now's the time.
Not to worry about me though...I've been in far worse situations...such as the job I'm now leaving!