15 June 2019 -Diet Diary - Sad day for me, my friends have officially vacated their home and will be driving to Wichita tomorrow. I'm handling it better today, some tears but not too wound up. Not convinced that my Wed/Thu spiked BP wasn't related to the emotional stress. I have a history of physical reactions to emotional stress.

Of course there is the eating/weight thing but for a time I would break out in hives when I was upset, then there was the phase when I had gall bladder attacks (SICK, SICK, PAINFUL THINGS) when under stress and years of assorted gastric disturbances. White coat syndrome as well, especially if the possibility of needles exists, BP will be elevated. I have a hyperactive vagal response, even as a kid I would faint if I got a shot. Truth is, I'm just a hot mess.

With age I have overcome some of those. The gall bladder is gone now, white coat/BP issue remains. I can pretty much stop a vasovagal incident now before I pass out. Listing all that I have to wonder how I've managed to not think myself into my grave before this.

Well, at least this time I managed to mostly keep my eating under control. Ended today under 1200, although not by a lot. My goal remains elusive but I will continue the pursuit. For now, I shall surrender to sleep, I hope.