I agree, it is helpful to write about the struggles and the successes in this battle. It helps to get some feedback from others on things shared but even when there are no comments, the public posting serves a purpose, promoting self-awareness of my own behavior and creating accountability for my successes or failure.

I know how deeply rooted our habits, good and bad, are in our upbringing. I experienced some very early neglect with some nutritional deficiency by the time my paternal grandmother got care/custody of me. She was very devoted to me, I was, for her, the embodiment of the only daughter born to her, the child she lost at 7 years old to scarlet fever. She committed herself to making up for my poor start and feeding me well was a big part of that. It remains a serious struggle for me to not go directly to food when I am upset, frustrated, sick or sad.

Would you believe, when I have been ill, I absolutely crave milk-toast. Lovely buttered, sugared toast with warm milk poured over it. Amazing how few people react positively to the mention of milk-toast but for me, it is like having someone feel my forehead and stroke my hair. Those entrenched connections to food are not easily broken. They can be contained though, I'm down 60 pounds and that took containing many of those attachments to food so I will continue to do battle and I'm confident that in the end, I will win.

@Robecology No real plan for today, had salad, melba toast(?) with jelly, coffee with creamer and apple chips and at 2:30pm, I'm at 176 calories. Rest of the day won't go that well but maybe can keep to the low side today. Making a batch of "Slaw-ghetti" tomorrow . Put shredded cabbage in the crockpot, pour a can/jar of spaghetti sauce over, add meatballs, etc. if desired and cook. Tastes surprisingly like pasta. Drooling!