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It's been a little over a year since my wife, Lisa, died and I'm trying to keep the promises that I made to her. Two of the promises were;

1) That I would take care of her dog, Zach. He's a Pekingese. So far, I'm doing a good job there. I even remember to take him for his Vet visits.
2) I promised that I would take care of myself. So far, I'm doing a terrible job of that. I joined a gym last April, but I haven't been there yet. I could afford to lose about 40 pounds. I have remembered to make and keep my appointments for my doctors visits.

I had also promised that I would enjoy the rest of my life. Good luck with that one, Lisa.

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WRONG! "Losing" is just physical! You have pictures & more important memories. If they had children ...
AncientNight comments on Mar 29, 2019:
I no longer have my wife, Lisa, to hold, except for the Urn that her Ashes are in. I no longer can converse with her. I can no longer see her. I can no longer hear her voice. I've lost her in the truest definition of the word. Anyone that says otherwise, doesn't know what I have to go through every day! Any one that says otherwise, doesn't know what loss is. Losing someone by their passing away IS a loss that can't be explained or understood by anyone other than those who have also suffered that loss. Memories are all we have left and those are no replacement for the person that's gone forever.
FEDERAL CHANGES COMING: Marijuana Banking Bill Approved By Congressional Committee Tom Angell...
AncientNight comments on Mar 29, 2019:
Well, there's some good news in there, with a little blowback from Republicans, which I would have expected, anyway.
When you lose your parents you lose your past. When you lose your spouse you lose your present. When...
AncientNight comments on Mar 29, 2019:
Both of my parents are gone. My wife is gone. But, I haven't lost a child and no one in my family has, as far as I know, lost a child, either. I don't know that feeling and I hope no one ever does again.
7 days until the one year mark. I've hit all the other firsts. Birthdays, anniversaries, holidays. I...
AncientNight comments on Mar 29, 2019:
In coming up on the second anniversary of Lisa losing her battle with cancer, I know that feeling. I still hear her voice calling to me. I can still smell her hair after she took a shower. Her laugh, the look in her eyes and the feel of her lying next to me in bed at night are nothing more than memories. All we have left are the memories of the ones that were here, but now are gone. The only thing we can do is remember and let the tears fall when they come.
This is so true❤?
AncientNight comments on Mar 28, 2019:
Death also leaves a bittersweet taste in our lives.
Follow up/Update A week ago I posted about a situation with a friend who is an evangelical ...
AncientNight comments on Mar 28, 2019:
If anything, you're being too tolerant with her. I remember the original post (remembering it surprised me) and I think my comment to you was along the lines of, "With friends like that, who needs enemies?" Taking the time away from each other is a good idea. It will give her some time to reflect on how obnoxious her god talk is to you. Maybe.
A different way of looking at depression, which in some way kind of makes sense. For those of us ...
AncientNight comments on Mar 28, 2019:
This is something that I don't know how to respond to, because, it seems to me, that depression is different for each person. What causes depression is different for each person. The depth of depression is different for each person. Depression is different for each person, because we are all unique in how we're put together. What sends one person into a tailspin wouldn't phase another. This is something that will require some additional thought on my part.
I need one marked "WTF"
AncientNight comments on Mar 28, 2019:
That's rather ironic when you think about it. The box has a smile on it!
This is really a cool "pin". I wonder where I could get one.
AncientNight comments on Mar 28, 2019:
Have you checked Amazon and E-Bay?
Update: My dream vacation and rendezvous has been great...just great. I fell in love with the UK ...
AncientNight comments on Mar 28, 2019:
Good for you! I'm going to be doing the three things that Lisa and I had in common in our Bucket Lists this coming Summer. I'm going to see the Rocky Mountains, the Grand Canyon and the Pacific Ocean. I'll also visit some family along the way. I have a sister in Colorado and another sister in Oregon. Hopefully, after this Road Trip, my smiles will be more than just a shadow and my laughter won't be hollow anymore.
Learn from Wendy Walker Traditional American home cooking! [youtu.be]
AncientNight comments on Mar 28, 2019:
That's hilarious!
Going to sound silly....maybe. But it is where I find myself so here it goes. Lost my hubby a yr ...
AncientNight comments on Mar 28, 2019:
I know the feeling. The only thing that I really have left is Zach, my wife's Pekingese. We don't know how old he is, but estimates range from 14 to 16 years old. When we got him in 2008 (he was rescued from a puppy Mill), we took him to the vet and they thought that he was about 2 years old then. But, after seeing him a few times, they reassessed his age to have been 5 or 6 when we got him. He's moving slower (but so am I) and he sometimes doesn't want to eat. He likes it when I brush him out every morning and we have a game we play while I brush him. He was Lisa's dog, but, as anticipated, I was the one to brush him out, feed him, make sure that his water dish was always full take him out when he needed to go and give him baths when he needed them. I don't regret it at all. I had to downsize a lot when I moved in with my Daughter after Lisa lost her battle with cancer, so I had to leave a lot of things behind. EDITED: It's not silly to miss the life you once had.
Well, I sold our home. I transfer the deed on the 4th. The place is decrepit. I kind of feel bad for...
AncientNight comments on Mar 28, 2019:
The longest I lived anywhere in my adult life was 13 years. It was on Indian Road in Gloucester, here in Virginia. According to local legend, the road was originally the trail that the Powhatan Indians used to go from their Summer and Winter camps and Pocahontas, supposedly, was one of them. We had to move out of there, because the roof leaked and created some Black Mold in the rafters. After the work to fix the leak and clean up the mold was done, the landlord raised the rent to an unrealistic $650 a month. I guess he didn't like getting calls from us every time it rained.
Breakfast! What’s for breakfast at your house? I start almost every day with eggs gently fried ...
AncientNight comments on Mar 28, 2019:
Eggs, over easy cooked in butter with salt and black pepper. Bacon, at least 4 thick slices (or some ham, fried in butter, or steak, fried in butter, both with salt and black pepper). Home fries with onion and green pepper in it and cooked in butter and salt and pepper. Whole wheat toast with butter. And coffee. Black. No sugar. No cream or milk or artificial creamers. No candy bar flavorings. No whipped cream. And no cherry on top. Either that, or a bowl of cereal.
Here's how to make a bologna sammich! Recipie in the vid. Hopefully you get the lulz! :) ...
AncientNight comments on Mar 28, 2019:
Only people from New Jersey call it a sammich!
I thought this was cute
AncientNight comments on Mar 28, 2019:
I had to put those things on my wife when she couldn't do it for herself anymore. We got them from the hospital when the oncologist put her there. Some were like ankle sox and some covered her calf, some were blue and some were yellow. I miss her.
Rare illness linked to cannabis in studies... [amp-businessinsider-com.cdn.ampproject.org]
AncientNight comments on Mar 27, 2019:
It could be from any of over a dozen things that affect Ms X. Plants sprayed with anything from poison to insecticides. It could even be that these plants were genetically altered to bring out these kinds of reactions. It could even be allergies to some kind of insect or fungal infestation on the plants. I'm not in the medical field, so don't take what I say about it as the absolute truth in this.
@Marcie1974 Happy Birthday!
AncientNight comments on Mar 27, 2019:
Happy Birthday, @Marcie1974 !
I've had something gnawing at me for a couple of days and I feel like I need advice or something. ...
AncientNight comments on Mar 27, 2019:
There's no shame in having Loved someone. In the 42 years that Lisa and I had together, we had some in-depth conversations, but nothing like the conversations that we had in the last few years of her life. In those last few years, our Love grew exponentially. I, literally, did anything for her in those last years.
Yesterday I was bored. I needed to do SOMETHING. So I roasted some pecans that have been sitting in ...
AncientNight comments on Mar 27, 2019:
When I was living for a while in Bluffton, SC there was a farm field behind the local convenience store. Next to the field, there were a couple of huge pecan trees.When the nuts fell off the trees, people came from all over town to gather them up. It wasn't unusual to see four or five people there on any given day. Those trees dropped a tremendous amount of nuts. It took us about a half an hour to fill two large paper shopping bags (there were no plastic bags back then). I wonder if those trees are still there. After all, it was almost a half a century since I was there and those trees must have been there since before the Civil War.
My girlfriend and I are both transwomen, she knows that I still have viagra left over from before I ...
AncientNight comments on Mar 27, 2019:
I'm the kind of person that believes that if it feels good, do it. I guess I'm a bit of a Hedonist in that kind of thinking.
OH NO... Marijuana Legalization Vote Cancelled Due To Lack of Support In New Jersey Senate ...
AncientNight comments on Mar 27, 2019:
Looks like the Lobbyists have their work cut out for them in the New Jersey Senate.
HERE GOES TEXAS Key Congressional Committee To Vote On Marijuana Banking Bill A major ...
AncientNight comments on Mar 27, 2019:
It looks to me like the Banking Lobby is stronger than the War On Drugs in Texas! Can a vote on legalization be far behind?
Hey Family-- I could use some input, perhaps a little help-- I've lived in my apartment now for ...
AncientNight comments on Mar 27, 2019:
Get a GoPro camera and wear it like the cops wear their bodycams. Make sure that it has a microphone that works. When you're harassed by those, alleged, people, you should send copies to the ACLU near you, the local prosecutors office and then post it on You Tube to show everyone what you have to live with. Do the You Tube after getting in touch with the ACLU lawyer that should be contacting you when they receive your video. That might take up to a couple of weeks. I can smell lawsuits and litigation in your future.
Want to toke up Laddie?
AncientNight comments on Mar 27, 2019:
It would take at least, three people to fire up THAT bong! Two to hold two lighters each and one to toke!
Call it what your comfortable calling it. [l.facebook.com]
AncientNight comments on Mar 26, 2019:
I always refer to it as anything BUT Marijuana. Usually, I call it Cannabis, but every once in a while, I call it Pot, Grass, Weed, Reefer or Ganja. (So many names! So little time to smoke it all!)
MORE Researchers Gave People Synthetic Pot. Here's What Happened. Credit: Shutterstock Synthetic...
AncientNight comments on Mar 26, 2019:
I've never trusted the synthetic Cannabis, so I've never smoked it. I've heard too many horror stories about it which steered me away from it. Give me the real thing, either to smoke, or as an edible.
Veggie beef soup. At the end will add tortellini and fresh spinach! Also going to make fresh white ...
AncientNight comments on Mar 26, 2019:
I should make some soups again. That canned stuff is getting a bit tired, even though I do things to make it taste a little better.
If you're in the north east, crampons and snowshoes are still a very good idea. Just hiked in the ...
AncientNight comments on Mar 26, 2019:
I have family living in the area just East of the Catskills in Orange and Ulster Counties and I worked on a dairy farm in Sullivan County, just West of there. I remember what it was like throughout that region. I think that it's one of the most beautiful regions of the country, but my opinion is biased because I spent so much time there in years gone by.
"Speak their name" I love this poem.❤
AncientNight comments on Mar 26, 2019:
I speak Lisa's name every day. I replay the memories of our times together over and over in my mind. I tell my Grandchildren as much of her as I can, but I feel, though, that those memories will fade, as all things fade, until nothing is left. Who will remember us a thousand years from now, or even a hundred years.
Did you ever survive on local foods only from your garden and barns without doing groceries? When...
AncientNight comments on Mar 26, 2019:
My Mom's Parents did that for most of their lives. The only things that they had to buy was meat from local farmers, sugar,salt and some spices that couldn't be grown in their garden. The first year that they grew potatoes, they planted an area that was 10 feet by 10 feet. They ended up with 450 pounds of potatoes and had to donate some to the local food bank. The only fertilizer that they used was Compost, cow and horse manure (from a neighbor) and chicken manure from their chicken coop. The sandy soils of the Catskill region is ok for gardening, but with all the added nutrients from the compost and manures, it was so dark, it was almost black. I should get back into gardening again, but I need a rototiller that works. I have seeds.
Ah. Starting on the "Redneck Stroganoff"! Ingredients, <mostly->. First step according to most ...
AncientNight comments on Mar 26, 2019:
I saw part 2 first. Are those Baby Portobello's?
CBD isn't the true pain medicine [l.facebook.com]
AncientNight comments on Mar 26, 2019:
OK! Now tell me something that we don't know.
CBD news of the day
AncientNight comments on Mar 26, 2019:
Hmm! I thought that CBD derived from Hemp was legal in all 50 States and all Possessions and Territories. 13 is a really good number.
So since my weaning off of anxiety meds I have had the unfortunate luck of experiencing depression ...
AncientNight comments on Mar 26, 2019:
Have you tried taking a hot shower, or bath? The hot water will relax the muscles in your body and might help relax your mind. What I do is get the water as hot as I can stand it, then make it a little hotter. I just let the water run down on me in the shower, sometimes even if I don't need to take a shower. I've taken up to 6 showers a day that way and the only drawback is that I run out of hot water every time. We only have a 40 Gallon hot water heater (I wonder how much one of those On Demand Hot Water Heaters goes for). At least we have a well here, so we don't have to pay for the water. If you take a hot bath, you can let some of the water out of the tub when it cools down too much and add more hot water to it.
??. Chinese food buffet tonight! I'm taking a break from cooking... I'm gonna order the ...
AncientNight comments on Mar 26, 2019:
I remember, back in the 70's going to the restaurants on Canal Street when Lisa and I were still in the dating stage of our short courtship. Now, when I go to one of the two good Chinese takeout places (owned by the same people) in the county, my Daughter's family and I get things like: Shrimp Lo Mein, Baby Shrimp with Brocolli, Moo Goo Gai Pan, Crab Rangoon, Pepper Steak (which usually has more onions than anything else), Mongolian Beef, General Tso's Chicken, Egg Rolls and Shrimp Rolls, Wanton and Egg Drop Soups, Fried Rice and extra White Rice (for my grandson because he loves it) These are just a few of the dishes that we've ordered in the past year or so. We do order several other things that are vegetarian dishes for my Daughter, but I can't think of any right now. OK! I'll admit it. It's not as good here in Virginia as it is in Chinatown NYC, but it's what we have here and we like it.
I was checking out an article on Magnetic Brain Stimulation today and came across this information....
AncientNight comments on Mar 26, 2019:
It seems to me that the side effects outweigh the benefits. At least, that's what I get from reading the article. In most cases, it seems, that memory loss is one of the biggest side effects. My memory is bad enough and I wouldn't want to make it worse. But, that's just my opinion, for what it's worth.
Well this sucks... NJ MJ legalization abandoned. [www-nytimes-com.cdn.ampproject.org]
AncientNight comments on Mar 26, 2019:
I think that each State that hasn't legalized Cannabis yet should put it on the Ballot as a Referendum asking the citizens if they want Legalized Cannabis, or not. My opinion is that the majority of people in these States would approve of the measure. Then, maybe, put it on the Ballots in the next National Election and see what happens.
This weeks menu is: Buttermilk Chicken, chicken thighs roasted, then covered in a buttermilk ...
AncientNight comments on Mar 26, 2019:
That all looks good! I haven't had a Cherry Pie in a LONG time. One of my favorites, but I'm trying to lose some weight. Is that why I sat here the other night and ate a whole box of Twinkies?
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AncientNight comments on Mar 26, 2019:
Well, a reduction in fines isn't as good as decriminalization, but it's a start!
I "discovered" two pounds of ground venison in our chest freezer today. I was wondering if anyone ...
AncientNight comments on Mar 25, 2019:
I would like to make a discovery like that in our freezer. It would be like a holiday to me!
Guess who's back? Video recipe link - [youtu.be] Chicken Fajita pasta. Very easy to prepare ...
AncientNight comments on Mar 25, 2019:
Welcome back! I'm going to try this recipe!
[l.facebook.com] Not holding my breath.
AncientNight comments on Mar 25, 2019:
Keeping my fingers crossed. I'm hopeful, but skeptical.
One of the best kitchen tools is a large pair of scissors. This evening I used them to slice up ...
AncientNight comments on Mar 25, 2019:
I've used scissors to cut up things like herbs, spices, and leafy greens, but I use a sharp knife on everything else. The only problem I have with knives is that, after I sharpen them, they have a tendency to mistake my fingers for whatever it is that I'm cutting! My knife skills are severely lacking, so a mandoline comes in handy.
So this Thursday is the last time I see my counsellor. Not of my own choice. There are new policies ...
AncientNight comments on Mar 25, 2019:
Clinics aren't the only ones in the health care World that are cutting back. Insurance companies are cutting back on how much care is needed for mental health patients. They charge more and give less. That, too, is not fair. If the councilor has taught you anything at all, take that and remember it. Internalize it and make it a part of your life. You have to Keep On Keeping On, just like the rest of us.
Has anyone here made it the confluence in Hells Gate Wilderness in AZ from the Young side?
AncientNight comments on Mar 25, 2019:
No! But I've been to Hell and made it back, relatively unscathed. The only place I've been to in Arizona was Yuma when I was in the Marines. My squadron was sent there, TAD, so the pilots could practice their strafing and bombing runs and dogfights. I've always wanted to get back to that part of the country. This coming Summer, I'll be taking a cross country Road Trip. My wife and I had 3 things in common on our Bucket Lists, so I'll be doing those 3 things. To see the Rocky Mountains, the Grand Canyon and the Pacific Ocean.
Struggling so hard with loneliness and feelings of worthlessness. I just want to be seen as someone ...
AncientNight comments on Mar 25, 2019:
I've been going through feelings of worthlessness since I was a kid. The feeling was instilled in me by my father, who told me, every time he got drunk (every night), that I was a worthless piece of shit and would never amount to anything in my life. When you throw shit against the wall, some of it is bound to stick. I know how it can make you feel. Here I am, at the age of 69 and I'm just starting to get over it now. The best thing you can do for yourself is to dig into your past and find out where that feeling comes from. Once you do that, half the battle is won. Then, start doing things for yourself that makes you feel better about yourself. And, above all, Keep On Keeping On!
Did you like or hate this movie?
AncientNight comments on Mar 24, 2019:
The girl is cute! Sleepy Hollow is a real town. It looks nothing like the scenes in this movie. It's on the East side of the Hudson River, right by the Tappan Zee Bridge. We used to pass it when going over the bridge to visit my Grandparents when they lived near Kingston, NY.
A BASIC MINCED BEEF RECIPE. Ingredients, in order of use. 7 to 8 Tablespoons Olive Oil. 2 ...
AncientNight comments on Mar 24, 2019:
Sounds good! But I have a dumb question. What's a Courgette?
More vintage delights (sorry I haven't posted in a while...)
AncientNight comments on Mar 24, 2019:
Keep them coming when you can. Reruns are welcome, too!
COTTAGE PIE. (Note. I have not specified any salt. If desired, it can be added to the basic mince ...
AncientNight comments on Mar 24, 2019:
That looks like what we, in the US would call a Pot Pie. I guess that, no matter what you call it, it still tastes good. Happy Wife! Happy Life!
Today's late lunch / early dinner... Spicy kielbasa, with beans and onions over yellow rice......
AncientNight comments on Mar 24, 2019:
That looks good!
LOS ANGELES (AP) — Support for US Cannabis Legalization Reaches New High, Poll Finds The ...
AncientNight comments on Mar 24, 2019:
The number that surprises me is the Republican approval of legalized Cannabis. I would have thought that the number would have been closer to 24%. See the shock on my face? I also thought that the Democrat number would be a little higher. I guess it all boils down to which Poll you cite for the statistical numbers. I would imagine that the results would vary depending on which age demographic was asked, too. The younger, the higher the approval. The older, the higher we get!
Pan fried ribeye in olive oil and butter, to a nice meduim rare. Rubbed a russett with olive oil and...
AncientNight comments on Mar 24, 2019:
That looks like some good eatin'!
Finally got time to cook a proper meal! So: Salmon with anchovies and capers; the last of Richard's ...
AncientNight comments on Mar 24, 2019:
I don't think that I ever heard of you cooking an IMPROPER meal before. This sounds good. I like fish, but I'm the only one in the house that does (they don't even like the beautiful aroma of cooking fish), so I only have it when I go out to eat. (Hmm! I think Red Lobster is having a special going on now.)
REPUBLICANS ARE HELPING BOOST CANNABIS LEGALIZATION In Texas, no bill becomes law unless ...
AncientNight comments on Mar 24, 2019:
Looks like the republican Party is either jumping on the Bandwagon, or they're just placating people for the upcoming elections. If the it's first one, GREAT! If it's the second, watch out for a change of mind if they win their elections. Either one could happen
Snow snake! They are as rare as Bigfoot.
AncientNight comments on Mar 24, 2019:
Is that the kind that just eats your arms, or is it the kind that goes straight for your head?
Banana Sandwiches.... ever had one? Would you try one? I was watching a cooking show tonight and ...
AncientNight comments on Mar 24, 2019:
Any fruit with Honey is good! Add some Marshmallow Cream like Fluff, put it in a frying pan with some butter and you have ONE GREAT SANDWICH!
Soo this may be due to weaning off of meds to switch to other meds but I have been feeling more down...
AncientNight comments on Mar 24, 2019:
WOW! A change of medications. A change of jobs. In short, huge changes in your life. That's enough to send anyone reeling. Take a deep breath and reassess what you have to do, then do it. Get those resumes out there. Talk to your doctor. Make appointments where needed and keep them. I know! It seems like an impossibly high mountain to climb. But, if you put one foot in front of the other, you just might find that it was a pleasant hike when you get to the top. Keep On Keeping On!
This a copy and paste of a email that I just did because I needed a fucking outlet, and sharing it ...
AncientNight comments on Mar 24, 2019:
In reading the biographical notes on your High School life, I was thrown back to the 1960's when I was in High School. Even though I only had to take 3 classes a day, I still dropped out. As for my Father, he wasn't a terrible person. When he was sober. He suffered from PTSD from WWII when he fought in the Philippines against the Japanese and spent every night in a one gallon jug of Gallo Port Wine that he kept next to his chair. I did, however get my GED when I was in the Marines in 1970 at my first (and only) Duty Station, MCAS Beaufort, SC. Right across town from where I went to Boot Camp at Parris Island. My life there is a totally different story, which ended badly. You sound like you're very angry, but you haven't specified exactly what it is that pisses you off. I was very much the same way when I was in my 20's, until I met my wife.. A Rebel Without A Cause. I was an alcoholic and it took Lisa several years, but she got me sober and kept me that way for over 35 years. When she lost her battle with cancer, I fell back into that Bottle of Bourbon and stayed there for over a year until my Granddaughter saw me fall down drunk. Even in my drunken state, I said to myself that the Grandkids shouldn't see that kind of thing and I haven't touched a drop since. Here's a suggestion. Find an MMA Gym (they're all over the place), and work out there. It's a good way to vent your anger on a physical level. It can also teach you how to channel your anger in a positive way. Then, find and join an organization that wants nothing more than to protect our delicate environments. Join the fight to bring the problems of pollution to the attention of as many people as possible. You might not, by your own assessment, be able to communicate these ideas verbally, but you can always be a kind of speech writer for the organization and put your words to paper. As far as friends go, you're not the only one that doesn't have any friends. With me, though, it was a personal decision to not have any. I got tired of being taken advantage of for various reasons. Mostly, I was tired of being preyed upon by needy, clingy people that just wouldn't let go. Now that I've turned 69, I'm open again to getting some friends and it's been decades since I've had any. I now know what to look out for and my search begins. Bottom line: Get a grip on your emotions. You can't force anyone to like you. But, if you can treat others with some respect and then they'll return that respect. In order to receive, you have to be willing to give first. That goes for a wide variety of things; emotionally, intellectually and physically. Put yourself out there. Join that MMA Gym. Volunteer your time to one of those environmental organizations. It's better to put your energy into something that...
ALABAMA House bill proposes cannabis card for medical marijuana in Alabama Updated Mar 21, 2:19 ...
AncientNight comments on Mar 23, 2019:
State Rep Mike Ball must know someone that benefited from the use of Cannabis. What he did was unusual for a Republican. Most of them are opposed to legalization in any form. I guess the truth is leaking into the extreme right, at least, a little bit.
In the interest of keeping honest I'm compelled to explain why I changed my profile photo. First of...
AncientNight comments on Mar 23, 2019:
Honesty is always a good thing and I think that you're not the only one that doesn't identify with their physical appearance. Take me, for example. In my profile photo, you can see an old man that is weak, fat and not very bright. In reality, I'm actually a cross between Conan the Barbarian, Albert Einstein and Han Solo, but I couldn't find a picture of the real me. I guess what I'm trying to say is that it doesn't matter what you use as a profile photo, or what you really look like. What does matter is what you say and how you say it to the others that are here. The real you is your reactions to others and how others react to you. I'll let you in on a little secret. Ever since I was 8 years old (1958 ), I've had the feeling that I was born either 100 years too soon, or 100 years too late. It's a feeling that persists to this day. The bottom line is that you are what you are. You can't change it, others can't change it (even though some try) and as soon as everyone in your life understands that, then the better off we'll all be.
I’m sure there’s a story here. Homossassa River in central Florida.
AncientNight comments on Mar 23, 2019:
This would look better with some red paint around the neck, a good spooky story to be told to kids around a campfire and just before taking them past the heads in the twilight. Make sure the kids have a change of pants on hand!
?? My lunch today.... Baked Roast beef and provolone hero with Tomatoes, onions, mayo, Goya ...
AncientNight comments on Mar 22, 2019:
My dentures are too wobbly for something like this, but it DOES look good. I have a hard enough time with a Roast Beef with cheese and mayo on Whole Wheat bread (not toasted).
Greetings All. I'm guessing that "Nationwide" is referring to the United States. Being a Canadian, ...
AncientNight comments on Mar 22, 2019:
You have what we want. Legalization. I can't speak for everyone, but I think we could benefit from your feedback on getting Cannabis legalized.
Connecticut.: Legislative leaders unveil plans to end marijuana prohibition in 2019 Mar 19, 2019...
AncientNight comments on Mar 22, 2019:
Good Luck CT!
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AncientNight comments on Mar 22, 2019:
Here's the scientific method: If it gives you a buzz, it's OK. If it gives you a good high, it's better. If it if the high is even better, it's really good. If it knocks you on your ass, send some to me!
I don't know if this topic is truly appropriate for this group, but the situation IS driving me ...
AncientNight comments on Mar 22, 2019:
With friends like that, who needs enemies? You could ignore those "god" comments, but that would mean that you couldn't come up with some snappy comeback lines. Like, when she said that it was the Fairy Tale character's idea, you could have said, "No! It was Satan's idea! He comes up with some good ones and passes them on to me!" Or; "I wouldn't know if he came up with that idea, because he didn't consult with me on it." Or, you could just tell her to shut up with all the god talk. But, whatever you choose to do about the situation, be as forceful as you can.
Spring libations... I have the week off from work next week. Does anyone have a good margarita ...
AncientNight comments on Mar 22, 2019:
I was never one to have mixed drinks. I was more into Bourbon and Beer. As an alcoholic, I quit drinking... ...Again!
Veggie Dinner tonight A couple days a week I have all veggie meals. Tonight is boiled cabbage and...
AncientNight comments on Mar 22, 2019:
I prefer the salt and pepper with lots of butter on it method. Either that, or made into Saurkraut. There's nothing like home made saurkraut. I've never made it myself, but my Grandmother and my wife's aunt used to make it. My favorite was when it was served with venison and saurbrotten.
?? I was in the process of making a meat sauce to serve over pasta when I realized I had no tomato ...
AncientNight comments on Mar 22, 2019:
That looks like a good Italian soup! Just the thing for yesterday's chilly Spring Equinox!
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AncientNight comments on Mar 21, 2019:
That's the stuff that I got for Lisa when she was going through her cancer treatments. It's EXTREMELY POTENT!!! The first time I went to give her "just a little bit" it came out of the syringe a little too fast and I got some on the cutting board that I was doing it over. Lisa took the amount that she needed and told me I could use the rest that spilled. Even though it was a small amount, it kept me high for almost 3 full days.
Super hiking woman Any guys looking for a hiking partner? I saw this and thought way out of my ...
AncientNight comments on Mar 21, 2019:
I doubt if I could do that in 3 years, let alone one. But, it would be a great series of hikes!
I heard this song few hours before my husband passed. To this day it still brings tears to my eyes?
AncientNight comments on Mar 21, 2019:
That was a song that Lisa would sing to me, our kids and even our dog. I miss her.
Caramel sauce
AncientNight comments on Mar 21, 2019:
When my Daughter went to Denver for a business trip, she brought back some pot infused caramel candies for me. They were good tasting and a good high that lasted a long time.
About to have to take a T-break guys. Can’t feel shit anymore when I smoke. Probably have to go at...
AncientNight comments on Mar 21, 2019:
This is why I only take a few tokes here and there. The more you smoke, or ingest, the more it takes to get you high.
I only need 12,671 points for level 8. I've been doing this one point at a time so anyone care to ...
AncientNight comments on Mar 21, 2019:
Just keep commenting and posting. Eventually, you'll get there!
I am new here. I lost my husband five years ago to a hospital-acquired infection the day after his ...
AncientNight comments on Mar 21, 2019:
Welcome to the group! You can feel free to pour out your grief here. Rant, Yell, Scream or Shout out your pain. We all understand, because we're all going through the same thing. We all know what it's like to run across those people that don't understand what it's like to lose a spouse. To let people know that I'm going to be mourning for the rest of my life, I got two Tattoos dedicated to the love that I lost. Her life was filled with Kindness and Love for others, but, you didn't want to get on her bad side. Notice that Buddha is misspelled. that was intentional. It just shows that I'm Imperfect.
Sometimes it's just about being there It occurred to Pooh and Piglet that they hadn't heard from ...
AncientNight comments on Mar 21, 2019:
Sometimes, words just aren't enough. Sometimes all you need is someone's physical presence.
Ilhan Omar Verified account @IlhanMN Mom, Refugee, Intersectional Feminist, 2017 Top Angler of ...
AncientNight comments on Mar 21, 2019:
In looking back on the "war on drugs", I've seen that it's more a war on minorities and the poor. Those with deep pockets started that war to get us out of the way so that they could do things their way. I really believe that their final goal is to bring back a form of slavery for their benefit and to add to their bottom line.
Oh... I thought we were....
AncientNight comments on Mar 21, 2019:
I hate that feeling. It's one of the reasons that I've chosen not to have any friends since the 1980's.
Being a helper of others, I too often pretend to be ok when really I'm ready to crash and burn.
AncientNight comments on Mar 21, 2019:
Welcome to the Club! I took care of my wife for the last few years of her life. My Daughter came over a couple times a month so that I could do things like food shopping and laundry. My son was no where to be found. When we called for Hospice care, it got a little easier. But, only for a little while each day. I never really got any time to decompress. Going it alone can really suck. But, in here, you're never alone. There's many people in here that have been where you are now and they can help you find your way out. Talking to someone helps, even if it's a therapist. Face to face talking is important, because they can see your pain in your eyes and you can see their reaction to your situation in real time.
My group therapy last week and this (Wednesday Nights) was completely off the rails. This ...
AncientNight comments on Mar 21, 2019:
It looks like you let that "guest speaker" get under your skin. You can't let things like that bring you down. Back in the early to late 70's (almost a full decade), I was between jobs more than I was working, until I found a job I really liked in Audio/Video retail sales. Take a deep breath and take stock of what you have to offer to any job you might try to get. Get a coffee maker so that you don't have to drive 30 miles for a cup of coffee. While you're sipping on that cup of coffee, sit down and send out resumes to more than one place. You can get more fish by casting a wide net. Take heart! Things can be better, but only if you make them better. Put a smile on your face, even if you don't mean it. That, in itself, can help you in your dealings with job hunting. And remember to Keep On Keeping On!
????? A rather simple yet tasty dinner from a few days ago.. Fried kielbasa with onions, ground ...
AncientNight comments on Mar 20, 2019:
Mmmm! Kielbasa! I like that almost as much as I like Bratwurst!
Coming down the Turnpike Pennsylvania Senators Release Details On Marijuana Legalization Bill ...
AncientNight comments on Mar 20, 2019:
Good for Pennsylvania!
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AncientNight comments on Mar 20, 2019:
This is good news for diabetics. I'm just glad that I'm not one of them.
My daughter turned 35 yesterday. Her and the boys are coming over tomorrow (it's spring break) and ...
AncientNight comments on Mar 20, 2019:
My Mother used the same recipe back in the 50's when I was a kid. Thanks for the memories!
[l.facebook.] Here's where you can find recipes for cannabis food. Sorry.. I went to the site to ...
AncientNight comments on Mar 20, 2019:
All I get is that "Page Not Found" notice. But, I would imagine that the stems can be put into a blender and turned into a powder for other uses. I usually feed the stems to my dog. He loves it!
I just found out my sole surviving aunt is in her final days. She's the very last of the siblings ...
AncientNight comments on Mar 20, 2019:
My Mother's sister is the last of their generation in my family. She just turned 97. After she's gone, then us Baby Boomers will be the next generation to dwindle. It's the Circle of Life in Human terms. As each generation passes away, the next generation takes it's place, only to pass away in it's turn. The best we can do is to take what lessons we've learned from the previous generations and pass it down to our Children and Grandchildren. Hopefully, they'll remember what we teach them and pass it down to their descendants. That's all we can do.
I think this is the recipe for an Alabama Kush cannabis strain. Just choose a male and female from ...
AncientNight comments on Mar 20, 2019:
The same thing could be said about different communities and cultures all over the Globe! Q: How can you tell when a Redneck girl is a virgin? A: She's the one that can still outrun her father and brothers!
There is so many tragedies happening in this country and others, flooding is a major problem in so ...
AncientNight comments on Mar 20, 2019:
Every Spring, when the Snows melt in the higher elevations, there's flooding in the Plains. When the waters recede, people clean up, or rebuild those houses and move right back in. This is the sign of Stupidity, with a Capital "S" on it. These people know that flooding will return sooner or later, so I have no sympathy for these Lemming types that want their Waterfront Properties in flood prone areas. The solution to the problem of property losses from flooding would be for the government to step in and ban any homes or businesses to be built too near those flood areas. The land could be used as recreational areas like parks, playgrounds and even campgrounds. Replacing those would be a lot cheaper than replacing homes and businesses. But, as we all know too well, the Lemmings that want those Waterfront Properties have deep pockets and our government is, for the most part, a corrupt system.
Don't mix with me
AncientNight comments on Mar 20, 2019:
My Sister-in Law smokes Cannabis like that. I've been telling her for years (since I quit cigarettes in 2008 ) to cut out the tobacco.
Alabama moving
AncientNight comments on Mar 20, 2019:
WOW! If Alabama can do it, what's holding things up in Virginia? I might have to move to someplace where the cost of living is low and Cannabis is legal before I die.
Hello all, I'm looking for support as I go through the journey of transitioning, feel free to ...
AncientNight comments on Mar 19, 2019:
When you say "transitioning", does that mean that you're going to go through the gender reassignment surgery? If so, I'll send Good Vibes your way. Come to think of it, I'll send Good Vibes to you anyway!
NEW MEXICO NEXT: New Mexico is likely to become the next state to decriminalize marijuana, with ...
AncientNight comments on Mar 19, 2019:
I wonder? If the Majority of States (34) legalize Cannabis, would that FORCE the Federal Government to follow suit? It's something to go to Constitutional Lawyers about.
I apologize in advance for the length of this, but it feels important to get it all out I feel ...
AncientNight comments on Mar 19, 2019:
From my personal experience with the so-called "mid-Life Crisis", I would have to call it "Complacency". That word seems to fit better than crisis. I don't know what it's like to get a real divorce, but I do know what it's like to lose someone to cancer. (We did get a divorce, but that was so Lisa could get better health care.) What you wrote here isn't that long. Venting, ranting and laying it out there is what this site is for, so you have nothing to apologize for. I was on Social Security Disability from 1990 (disabled since 1987), so I know what it's like to be in financial straights. You get by with what you get and make do with what you have. Being on a fixed income sucks. I'm thinking of getting a temporary, part time job so I can afford to take my extended Road Trip this coming Summer (unless I win the Lottery first! LOL)
I really don't feel like living is worth it today. I know it's just my depression talking and ...
AncientNight comments on Mar 19, 2019:
Been there. Done that. One of the main reasons that I don't have any friends is because I was tired of "my friends" taking advantage of me for various reasons. Some for money, some for sex and others because they just were very needy people. For the past 30 years or so, my attitude about friendship is that it's something that I don't need, have or want. After a while, I got used to doing everything alone. It's not so bad.
This is what I'm trying to do for myself.
AncientNight comments on Mar 19, 2019:
This is another one of those "Easier Said Than Done" things. I've spent, just about, my entire life trying to escape from my reality.
Not a major expedition, the beach where I saw the otters is part of a loop of three miles start to ...
AncientNight comments on Mar 19, 2019:
Lately, the only camping that I've been doing is at a campground at the Woody Guthrie Folk Festival in Oklahoma. It's been a long time since I've gone camping in the Wilderness. I might add that to the extended Road Trip I'll be taking this coming Summer.
I am new to wine. Need some recommendations for a drinking/cooking red. Not a sweet one. I bought a ...
AncientNight comments on Mar 19, 2019:
I wish I could help you out, but my experience with wine was limited to the consumption of as much Boone's Farm Apple Wine as we could drink in as short amount of time back in the early 70's. As an alcoholic, I'm currently on the wagon and I won't be jumping, or falling off that wagon any time soon. However, I would have to say that $5.00 seems like too little to get anything decent. You might have to go up to the $10-15.00 range for some good cooking wines. You could find some articles by Googleing it. Finding something you like is an adventure. There are some wine stores that have Tastings once in a while. They'll let you drink a little bit to give you an idea of what you're looking for. (This information is second hand. My Daughter-in-Law is into wines.)

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