Write letters to your son... to be open by him at a certain specific date and time. Not before and do not put them in the custody of the mother. write them, label them and sealed them waiting for the correct ocasion. I was the lucky one that grew up with a father in another country paying my school and always receiving gifts but it was never the gifts... it was the fact that me and him communicated via letters and in my house was never, ever said anything wrong about him. Even today resonates on me that as a young man every time I dressed like a bum, I could hear "your father never dressed like that. He was the best dressed man I ever seen." Now at my age I still try to be like him. Just understand that his mother may not be that truthful about you or play fair... so be ready.

I'm sorry for the major change in circumstances with your son. That has got to hurt a lot.

As for your concern about being a magnet for mentally disturbed women, I'll just take a wild guess and say probably yes, especially right now. When we don't have ourselves together well enough, we keep attracting and being attracted by others who also have things they need to work on - and not necessarily the same things we need to work on ourselves, but generally the things that most set off our own issues.

If you can, figure out basically what your issues are, and study everything you can to fix those - or figure out the issues the women you commonly end up with probably have or had, and learn how to spot those, and how to deal with people with those issues.

If your ex-girlfriend has issues, you might want to start with how to most healthfully deal with her issues, as it is healthier for your son if both of his parents can at least basically get along.

I'm skinny and crazy. Idk my BMI rn.

I've been there my friend but life goes on.

Man, I can't even imagine the agony of your brain. I lived for my kids, and I know you do the same. I hope for you are able to maintain, and continue on.

Hey man, I can feel your pain, I was there 25 years ago. Don't stress too much re the women, your son is the priority. He will always need his dad, other women will come along, both better and worse than your ex is my guess. Hope it works out well.