For those who do not know, I consider myself a Gay male as my interest is in Men.

When I was a kid, I remember having close friends or buddies, and a few, I secretly had a crush on. This continued into my teen years. In high school, I played sports, and had an abundance of girlfriends but I always knew I was different.

When I attended college and medical school things changed. The desire to explore being with men intensified, so I decided to seek companionship, which is not very difficult in college. I admit to being very sexually active with guys during college because I was young, horny and plus I was on a self discovery.During this time in my life I considered myself "Bi" because it was easier than admitting the truth.

Always in the back of my mind I had family and religion making me afraid to be myself. My dad is part Arab and is a devout Muslim. My mom is Hindu and converted to catholic when she left south India as a young woman. My father introduced me and all my siblings to Islam but we all rejected it except for my oldest brother. Being a catholic, I was told that being gay was wrong.
When I moved the america and converted to a Baptist, I was told that Homosexuality was an abomination and I was going to hell!

Because if religion, I began to believe I was going to hell and "god" didnt love me therefore why should I exist. I decided to buy myself a hand gun with the intent to end my life. I obtained a guy and twice I wanted to shoot myself in the head but I was a coward and I chickened out both times.

When I was in grad school, things changed for the better. I met a guy who was "out" and we became best friends. His name was Kent. We were only friends no sex ever. Kent was the person who understood what I was going through because he had experienced the same thing. I was able to talk to him about anything and we hung out and did everything together. Sadly, 2 months after I finished medical school, Kent passed away from complications from Aids.

Thanks to Kent and his friendship, this gave me the courage to accept myself and love my self. I was able to live in my truth and admit I was "Gay".

Sorry for rambling on, but I ask the question is there such a thing as "BI" because for me, I use the term "Bi" during a time in my life when I was discovering what I was. It was too hard to admit I was gay so saying I was "BI" seemed better at that time.

What Do you all think about the term "Bi"