I feel like I am in therapy

What inner dialog?

I live alone so I talk to myself out loud.

I also have long conversations with my cat. He has a wide range of sounds he makes and can be quite insistent (it's not because he wants food because he argues after eating). Neither of us has the faintest idea what the other one is saying but we both feel better for it.

1. I want to change what and how I think
2. I can change what and how I think
3. I am changing what and how I think
4. I am fully in control of what and how I think
5. I like what and how I think

I'm between #2 and #3...

My character is an asshole constantly complaining but also singing bubbly songs and thinking about stupid things that make me laugh like how earlier I said 'good dog' as I pet a horse and how silly it was for me to mess that up or one time I saw a school bus and said 'fast banana' because there's 3 me in my head. Asshole, 3 year old, and sage old crone.

Who am I becoming? My mother, it seems

I try to turn the negative inner voice into songs or stories. Though it means I still have to live with whatever I was thinking, it puts me at a bit of remove from it.

“If you scrutinize the repetitious patterns of your inner dialog, what sort of a character do you think it dictates?”

A 21st century unaffiliated, eremitic monastic.

“Do you consciously counter negative self talk with positive?”

I have learned how to stop generating negative self talk.

“Who are you becoming?”

I am becoming Present Me.

Peacemaker.... and yes.

I've been working very hard to deprogram after being gaslit by the ex, so needless to say my inner dialogue is rather, um, dark and self defeating.

Motive force away from who I was, negative dialogue but (hopefully) positive outcome. Work in progress.

I'm working on catching my negative self talk, poo-pooing it, turning my thoughts toward something better.
Oddly, seems to be easier to do, every time I do it.
We humans are funny critters!

I refrain from it more now than ever since realizing that it is quite possible that this is the only life I will live, then why spent so much of it being overly critical of myself? But that's not to say that I don't challenge obvious flaws in my thinking, I just ignore the more trivial ones.

Hopefully someone better than i was before

Cynical....No....An old man

I've mellowed a lot since my younger days.
I find myself consciously having inner monologues to change my old behaviors.

I'm making conscious efforts to be the wonderful person you all know and love. ❤

I don’t even know how to reply:/

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A wiser older man I hope

Check back later and he'll tell you.

My inner dialog is a negotiation to find common ground between what I -want- to do vs what I know through experience is probably the best path to follow. This wasn't always the case. Through mindfullness I'm learning to have better control of my impulsivness, which in turn allows a broader view to develop...a view that may reveal an issue I would have never seen if I had made a snap decision. I'm really happy how this has been working out for me the last few years. Its nice to look back and see that about 90% of the calls I've made since putting the brakes on my decision making process have been good solid choices.

i have a mutiple personality, not the medical conditional, i just have. A persona for work, for socialising, for alone time, for close friends. All common traits of a introvert. a cynic who seeks the positive in everything. So long story short the negative and positive live in happy harmony. And i too like ChrisLAbbey make poetry and songs from the dark side so it would be rather ungracious of me to bemoan the muse. With regard to my future my longest-serving partner (and mother to my/our two wonderful sons, men now in their own right) used to berate me " i don't know why you signed up to that course, you never finish anything!". She did not realise that it was the trying new things that mattered not the end result. I am still trying new things. It also helps to be content with small goals. Every year i rehearse and perform a play with the same amatuer group. It occupies the dark winter nights. I am currently making a yurt frame after doing a 5 day course in the Abruzzo moutains in Italy last summer. I will be performing poetry at an annual punk gig in honor of my good friend who died 5 years ago of prostrate cancer. I still hope to learn enough about music via the ukulele to transpose the tunes in my head to the lyrics already written and perform them live. Life is good, except when it's bad, but it's mostly more good than bad

I just want to move past this point in my life and find a new worth it

My biggest hope for future me is that I will be a good daddy (my little boy is almost 11 months). And a good husband and friend. Also, to further discover who I really am, rather than who the church told me I should be most of life. To do this without destroying my marriage and other important relationships.