I tend to be this way, mostly when my depression raises its ugly head. On the other hand, I believe that most people will take a pretty dim view of a few things I've done (or haven't done). Feeling like I'm not worth shit makes the depression about twice as bad. I'm grateful that at least I feel okay-to-good more of the time than I feel bad.

@AlasBabylon Understood. I am lucky; I have found what drove my clinical depression. It is a collision between my upbringing and my wife's behaviour. Once I understood that, my clinical depression ceased; it was no longer the case in my mind that everything that went wrong was entirely my fault.

I hope you soon find a similar insight for yourself.

I usually try to remember to remind myself that you never know what trouble other people have that they're having to deal with. And we really don't know.

It's difficult to lower your standards when you already see yourself as being pretty worthless.