Ok so here goes..
I moved to fort lauderdale several years ago for something I was missing in life. I always felt different from most of my peers in new jersey. Ive always had interesting ways of looking at things, usually opposed to trends, and maybe even had a slightly higher level of thinking. Over the years I became increasingly more lonely...until the "girl of my dreams" entered my life...along with heroin.
Fast forward: I've been clean off all drugs (including alcohol) for 14 months. I work the narcotics anonymous program and my "higher power" is simply the good feeling I get when i help someone.
Still, I'm done with relationships that's are a threesome: me, her, and drugs.
For me to get high is to die. Still really lonely and want to find someone (female) to be happy with.
MATT,
I am so proud of people like you who are able to pull themselves out of a horrible situation and realize it was themselves who did it and not attribute it to some higher power. I am confident that you will find the girl of your dreams one day.
VAL