@JustJan
OK. But just for a short while. It was enough ?

@JustJan I used to be a cheater... always been a womanizer (I am in love with women) but never once I had a "mistress" according to my definition because I know some may think different and I will accept the difference. Honest, never understood how anyone will kill themselves for a mate. My ex-wife half brother killed himself for his about to be divorced wife.

@JustJan Very well spoken. Hate the usual suspect, Love the plausible alibi or the other way around. I never hated my life, never had I blamed others for whatever situation I had been in. But I will always accept my reality as a jumpstart to something else. I had to admit I came to earth with a set of skills that had made my life easier to aproach and withstand. I had wrote many poems and songs about heartache and broken hearts. My ex wife said... your "midlife crisis" came and went and you didn't even noticed it. If love is suppose to make me crazy to the point of lose control or hate myself... I sure do not want that because I like my type of sanity despite the joy limitations. I had been proud and I had been an asshole and I could never repay or turn time back to make it up to my ex wife. But that was a different man. But I believe that even when I seem to be standing still in obvlivion... I am moving on at the speed of light and the thought that whatever life handle me will not destroy me because I always been ready always been with me. Never expected to live this long but I am here, healthy and grateful, always been my own man, like a caribbean island that hurricanes come and go but next hurricane season still will be there standing smilling at the hurricane coming because hurricanes never survive despite the destruction caused and that is how I see problems, only one of the two will survive and is not the problem it is me. Help who you can while you can even if you don't understand their rationale.

@JustJan And I Salute you. And we know so little about what is going on with ourselves. I just yesterday found out by one the two parties involved that the two longest relationships in my life had spoken to each other! Sure compared notes. Didn't got me killed but still wondering how that happened? How never mentioned before by either... why, how, when... I know more individuals are involved and I want a "Full Investigation". No regrets, can't turn back time to correct them so.... WE WILL BE STANDING. WE CAN'T BE DESTROYED! THE STORMS DIDN'T SURVIVED US.

@JustJan Not worried, different paths, I learned from my experience working with classified material the importance of separate data in different "compartments" to avoid the view of the "whole picture". I had never spoken to an ex of someone in a romance with me. But my ex wife husband nr 2 and me got along fine when they were married, but we never spoke about her, we spoke the kids.