Leaving a faith you're raised in can be a long journey. My father is Catholic and my mother is Baptist (although she's more 'murican conservative Christian now) and I was raised pretty non denominational. I truly enjoyed my bible classes when I was younger. I have fond memories of a pastor I was particularly close to, who had such a spark for life and family. While I questioned the similarities in some of the mythology I read, I still loved to be a part of church choirs and kept believing for the most part. Even through a challenging youthful rebellious phase, I still went to a Wednesday youth group. I grew rather "meh" in my late teens after some weird situations occurred in my youth program and left me feeling unheard by god.
After I met my ex-husband, I started reading the Bible for myself as a new year's resolution. I had seen some online documentary that sparked my interest in reading it for myself. I had went to church and knew the tales but reading it on an app that allows one to flip between versions was next level. I cringed at the stories, literally "da faq?!" at rereading some of my favorite stories. They weren't exactly the way I was told.
I felt that if there was a god, everyone better hope it wasn't the Judeo Christian one because holy hell, that is one crazy deity. Nowadays, I'm more vocal about my atheism and out to my family. I still love Christmas, traditions, and lessons I was taught where the Bible was used (in a kind of pick and choose sort of way).
I couldn't see myself ever going back into that box. I can't unsee what I've seen.
Just recently found out that BAPTIST is part of the Catholic Religion so there is no getting away from it.All christian religions new or old have to be approved by the Catholic Church sucks doesn't it?