Late night thought before bed.

There's not much of a way for me to leave this open ended, so I guess I'll ask for opinions and any thoughts that come about.

I grew up with everybody around me having different religions. I have a great tolerance for the discussions and debates being thrown around. There's always been a couple things that bothered me, about Christianity, though.

1. This has bothered me since childhood. Where did God come from? Nobody was ever able to give me an answer. Although, I can't ever get an answer on how the emptiness of space came to be either. It's always bothered me that nobody has an answer on how either proposed beginning came from.

2. I'm asked often, "what if you're wrong? What if God is real, and when you die, you're sent to hell for eternity for you not believing and accepting Jesus into your heart and repenting for your sins?" What's always bothered me is so many people are religious out of fear. I feel that I am stronger for being able to say, "I would face God, and explain that I am sorry for my lack of faith, but I was a good, loving, accepting, giving human, without religion. I didn't treat others with love and respect out of fear. I lived my life willing to accept the consequences of being me and I stand before you understanding that if that wasn't enough to get me into heaven, I will accept my place in Hell." It confuses and bothers me that people do not seem strong enough to make their own decisions and face the consequences of them even though they tend (not all, just my experience) to be more greedy, selfish, angry, rude, and vain than their non-religious counterparts.

I apologize for the rant but I have kept that bottled inside me for so long, and I hope that it is welcomed here.