I know it is bad to hope in love but. . . Somehow, he makes me happy just seeing him. Despite suffering from depression, somehow, I can cope better when he is around. He makes me smile just by being himself. It doesn't matter if he is socially awkward, reserved, and gentle (somehow, I can even relate with him). I don't even know if I'm attracted, interested, or infatuated.
Why am I posting this? I don't know. I just want to tell someone about it because I cannot tell anyone about how I feel.
Anyway, I'm not hoping for anything. It's nice to have someone to make you happy despite having no chance of it ever succeeding.
Wow, he sounds like a great guy. Make sure he always treats you properly. ?
Why do you think there's "no chance" of it "ever succeeding". That seems like a pretty definitive statement. If that's depression or negativity talking, you might want to step it up a notch or two so that you don't steal defeat from the jaws of victory. On the other hand if you're really that morose, then it's better not to lead him on. On yet another hand ... if there really is a supportable reason this is not possible, then as others have suggested, don't torture yourself.
Not enough info here to advise you really but I hope this relationship makes you happier rather than sadder.
I hope you are working on becoming happy regardless of who is in your life...that is the Only way to actually be happy...saying someone "makes" you happy puts a terrible burden on them....
I too understand this in principle, that its a turnoff or a red flag to get too stoked on someone too early, but how do you learn to be happy alone when youve had 11+ years of it and it just gets harder and lonelier every day? I was happy or at least satisfied alone for the first 5-7 years, but Im afraid Ive reached a tipping point where the only thing that could make me happy again would be some company. No extraordinary pedestalized codependent expectations, although thats what everyone would probably assume or feel put off by. I have high standards n not just looking to get into a relationship just to be in one. But damn it sure would be nice for a change sometime.