Am trying to get used to the idea that I no longer have the body or mind of a 40 year old. ... I know that sounds trite...but it's rather new to me.
Now that I am an agnostic-atheist, realizing THIS is my ONE FUCKING PRECIOUS LIFE has put me into a whole tailspin after coming out of evangelicalism.
No 'new body in the new heaven' for me. LOL.
I'm learning (slowly) that I can love the skin I'm in even though 15 lbs over what I was for the last 30 years. That I cannot dance the night away as easily. But I can still dance and with less self-consciousness. That I cannot climb every mountain without my left knee hurting. But I can still WALK!!! That I cannot walk 10 miles much less 500 miles just to be the one...But I am okay with just being me! Yup. Being over 50 is different and new...but I would never want to be 40 again if it meant also being indoctrinated and in an unhappy marriage. So...
CHEERS to middle age! 
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That’s the attitude! Damn, I’da never thought ..62 would feel this good 
As for coming to terms with ‘this being it,’ we’re all on the same timeline. Life’s a cycle. Proud of my accomplishments, including grown kids.. I’d be scared to death to ‘do it again!’ No doubt having dodged death & dismembership multiple times - I made it, to here! You have too, welcome
Varn
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Mar 4, 2019
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Definitely happier at 57 but feel like better times are still to come! ?
Stephen1364
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Mar 4, 2019
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The happiest time of my life, hands down, is NOW! I am 70-and-half.
AnneWimsey
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Mar 4, 2019
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I’m not too far behind...will be 74 next week. I’ve just had a bereavement, so am not happy at present, but bereavement can happen at any age, so leaving that aside, I’m as happy at this age as I ever was, maybe more at times. Maybe I’d call it more content rather than happier.
Yes! My husband is older and being with him helps me recognize that happiness is ALWAYS Now. <3
@Marionville Bereavement for me has happened over and again since childhood.
I am truly sorry that you're going through this sad season...but you're a wise wonderful woman with experience and your contentment now helps me keep on keeping on.
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