I am having trouble with posting on here. For me, when I finally became Agnostic, the debate was over, thank god...lol. It was and is such a relief not to carry a belief system that I truly struggled with.
Agnosticism or atheism is either the beginning or the end, which ever you decide, or both if needs be.
It is freedom from religion, and or god(s) the end of a struggle, the end of oppressive nonsense, it is the beginning of a realistic out look or the beginning of a whole new purpose in life, or the beginning of a life of lies and secrets.
It's up to you, your life, your choice.
Congratulations on coming forth boldly and asserting yourself. You are now empowered to search for really meaningful answers, and to live in awareness, appreciation and joy.