Hopefully, around here you are..

Hated homework, but found it was necessary to figure things out. With a broad understanding of how stuff works, most of what I see can be explained and understood.

What we feel is different, fleeting, personal and evolving. It can be trusted, to a point, but not relied upon for answers or explanations of tangible realities. That’s where humans appear to lose it; relying on their emotions, including confusion & desires ..to explain the world around them.

We can relate to others with emotions, but need proof through science to explain everything else. I often wonder, are we complex, or simply confused

Absolutely! There’s a lot more to this reality than meets the eye. We are in almost total ignorance about the deep questions of existence. Slapping a label on the mystery doesn’t get us very far though—it’s still all very mysterious and exciting no matter what you call it.

You sound like a fellow Religious Naturalist. Check it out on Wikipedia.

its the something from nothing.

No. And you don’t need to call it anything, in fact better no to.

Naming defines and, by so doing, creates limitation on understanding.

Try this

Dylan Thomss - The Force that through the Green Fuse Drives the Flower"

You are definitely not alone.