This is a daily fight that I have as well. Some days are worse than others, and I am still trying to find a way to cope. I go back to work tomorrow after being off for over a week, and I am trying not to hyperventilate over the thought. I love my job, but the stress lately is overwhelming. Which then leads me back to being irritable, sad and bitter. I should be happy, I am very fortunate, but sadly I am not. I am going to try to take things one step at a time, and not try to solve every problem. I am hoping that will help. I hope you find what you need in order to feel better.

I have learned about mindfulness, living in the moment. It helps you to accept people, events etc with out judging. If interested read something by Thick Nhat Hanh. It has made me a much happier person.

sometimes I can only try to think of ways to live through pain. When I first got on FB looking for some community I realized that wasnt realistic. I didnt want to get in personal conversations there.I just started to looke for beautiful pictures, things that exist outside the realm of human trivialities and furor.I liked to see them and posted them to kind of save them for reference. WHen people liked the post or wrote me a note I liked that. Sometimes you have to take the small things and hold them tight