For the curious. I just recently said that I was still a virgin at 29 and a lot of people seemed interested in me so here is a basic story of my life.
I grew up poor but my parents made sure my brother and I didn’t go with out what we needed. I also have a stutter so I was shy around others and didn’t have many friends. We went to church every Sunday mornings and nights, then again on Wednesday nights. Which was about the extant of my social interaction. I did great in school and fell in love with reading to make up for my lack of friends. Thus began my life long love of knowledge and science.
As I got older my lack of friends led me to doubt myself and turn to food to cope. I gained a lot of weight and I hated myself for it which feed the cycle.
In late high school I finally started coming out of my shell and trying to make friends but my lack of experience made it hard to make a lot of friends. It was in 11th grade that I found my first girl friend but it failed after only 3 months.
After high school I went to college for wildlife biology and lived in the dorms. I made some great friends there and life was going good. I messed around and flunked out of college. Being 2008 the economy collapse and now I was living with my mom, no job, no car and no friends again. My weight shot up to 300 lbs and life was going now where.
Then in 2013 I went to prison for some really dumb reason both on my part and the governments part. But it is what saved my life. It was while waiting to go to prison that I started questioning my beliefs and realized that I didn’t truly believe. I never felt more happy or unburdened in my life. In prison I started losing weight and got in to yoga and exercise. It was also there that I found out I had melanoma skin cancer. It almost spread and killed me. I would have never gotten it checked out if I wasn’t in prison. From June 2013 until November 2017 I was in prison and now I am out trying to make it but I can be hard to do sometime. I am looking to finally start my life after almost 30 years of hating myself and doubt that I was good enough.
Just remember if you think life is to hard it could always be worse and one day it will get better even if you can’t see it. Just believe in yourself and keep going. Thank you for reading.