At least you have access to other free thinkers/agnostics, in the 1950s, when my rejection of religion occurred, I knew no one who was not religious. Some years later I heard of Madalyn Murray O'Hair in the news, but she was murdered. I feared telling people. The world has changed. I'm happy to have found agnostic, and like minded people. Enjoy.

I was also born in a musim family, but I left at 18. The problem I have that the family forget to share it with the younger family member. We meet seldom, and from last year people have stop talking to me. last year in summer I was at my muslim sibling home and once my nephew nieces realized I am there real aunt. They asked me why I am not going with them to mosque. I told them I am not muslim. My brother wishper to me, that I am not allowed to wear shorts, at his place. Even though I grow up swiming with my siblings. Fast forward my other sibling, this ramazan open a bottle of wine, pour himself a drink and send a happy Ramazan video to the rest of the family. He have not stop making a mockery out of them. Even though they have stopped trying to control me, they still wish I came back or pretend to be for the sake of there children, I tell my extended family and long lost muslim friends to quit as its a scam, that hypnotize you and control you. Worst incidence I had was at a funeral, where the mulla told my borthers that your sister is not allowed there. My family fought with each other during my mom funeral, because of this stupid mulla. Mosque people are slippery slope, Women covered in tarp keep telling me that they are peaceful people. Men keep pacing in anger. It is unsafe for us to be in those places. Because we where born there and they feel very angry toward us then someone they are trying to convert. My siblings are fighting with each other because of this New Islam. We have major issues, we are dealing with, including going to court, requesting mediation. We have decided to never see each other and just stay in touch with text, snap chat. So don't feel alone. There is a lot of us who have walked away from religion, its them who need to grow up and learn to spread the peace, love they preach about. We are better than them as we respect them.

courage

It can be lonely and difficult. I'm glad you are with us.

You escaped. Well done.

I know it's hard, but you've made the right choice by thinking for yourself. And at least your friends still communicate with you, even though they don't yet understand who you are. There are enough atheists in the world for you to find them. Is there an ex-muslim group on here? Maybe you should start one?

Being true to yourself is what matters. If your friends don't appreciate you for who you are, they were never really your friends. Just an opinion.