Thank you. That was well worth reading.
I like when people can work through their own thoughts and feelings logically.
You are right, it will be over,
and you are off to the rest of your life.
I hope it is fun and happy.

When a Divorce or a Death happens,it affects your soul, the wedding vows say "Till Death do we part",none of us expect to lose a partner,sure no one lives forever,medical accidents,car and aircraft crashes all take their toll. I lost my wife of 27 years in Sept to lung cancer, from her diagnosis to her death was a little over a year and one month, the twist of fate was being told on our 26th anniversary,sure the Radiation and then the Chemotherapy gave us hope,but her survival was not to be. There is a bell,that cancer survivors ring when they've licked cancer,in the lobby of the cancer here in Springfield Mo sadly,she never got to ring it.

Kathy(my late wife),was a smoker,quitting 30 or more years ago,but probably too late, It was a good run,no fight's drama ,or power struggles,just peace and tranquility in our home.

That was helpful. Thank you for posting it. I've been going through something very similar. The poor decisions my ex has been making, however, have blown up in his own face spectacularly. There are moments when I get some satisfaction in thinking about this, but they are fleeting. Mostly I'm just still grieving over what he did to both of us. Especially me.