So ok its 12.13 am saturday morning yes im a terrible insomniac I stay awake till 5 am sometimes later then crash out till miday wake feeling so drained so tired and think to myself ohh damn ive just gone and wasted another day in my life .. Yes im trying to get over a 20 years relationship thats been particularly hard cause i Lack the balls to end it and secretly hope shell want me but the reality is shes not well and dabbling in things that get us in trouble big time . I try to get away know whats she doing is wrong and will cost us in the long run but co dependency and addiction is a hell. I was clean sober and have been a number of years. I only went back cause i missed her and I was bored and stupidly thought oh well if you can't beat them might as well join them that was Two and a half years ago im now 1 week clean .. Anyone else have this same problem and how did they get themselves through it how long does it take and how does one move on from a 20 years relationship?