That's a though one.....what a hell do I do? I try not to get too blue by getting hooked on some specific tasks to keep me busy. Watching a DVD collection several times in different languages does it. At times its a good book.... sometimes I feel like loosing the battle and sitting down and cry it's an option too....yeah, that's what is in store if you're planning on walking alone and you can't see it until it's too late

My own lack of a partner does not mean I can't be happy for others who are happy in their relationships. However I went to a large gathering of about 70 friends and family this past holiday weekend, and now I'm experiencing a wave of depression that apparently stems from envy and my own loss. I expect to have bad days, due to the magnitude of the multi-layered betrayal my ex committed against me, but I was a little blindsided by this delayed but powerful impact.