@Dida same as goes for you. I'm always here.

@Dida maybe cut back then. Some of this new stuff is super strong (I hear). I like to go outside and just walk. The rhythm helps.

@Dida that's a great idea. I have a cat. It's not the same, but he's a good cat anyhow.

@Dida I've got a lot of family in Cheeseland. My grandfather lived on Winnebago. I spent lots of summer vacations at lake poygon and Boulder lake

@Dida Midnight has some white patches, but he hides them.

It takes time, and it won't be easy, but I think that it can be very helpful. Good luck!@Dida

My pleasure. @Dida

Dida, I wish you luck in your endeavor. To love and be loved is a great gift and a gift everyone should enjoy, even if it's self-love.

@Dida The meds do not close them out , they just help me to persevere & cope with what cannot be cured . When they do not seem to matter as much , they loose the desire to be present , & find something else to do , or someplace else to go . They always have been here , & they always will I suppose . . . As far as Nick goes , I also like transmen , that are stuck in a woman's body , I love to stroke their masculine ego

I’m sorry to say that life was far less complicated after she passed, not that I wanted her to pass. @Dida

You give me more credit than I deserve. She was truly unbalanced. I tried to keep us all together despite her spending habits, refusal to work, obsessive behavior, self indulgence, chaotic thinking, histrionic personal relationship...... eventually she did something that ruptured the family irreparably. I had to call the police and have her removed. It took two years after that before everything caught up to her. It was truly sad. I had no love for her in the end but I had no desire to see her so bereft of everything. @Dida

@Dida that's a healthy outlook.