Being unable to tell what is in my future is bugging me today. The uncertainty and the possibility of so many different outcomes.
I thought agnostics, etc, were healthier mentally and more rational in general than believers. After a few weeks on this site I am surprised by some women, who seem to be contrary to other women's opinions merely to differentiate themselves from other women and show they are "one of the boys."
That behavior doesn't hold a candle, however, to the number of men who show a mental age of under twelve in their grammar, name calling, and intense misogyny. It is as if 2/3 of male members are here to advertise their hatred of women, among other things they can't understand. They aren't here for community or dating, but merely to vent their bruised egos towards the nearest female. I don't pretend to understand why they aren't held back in rank or banned from the site. They ruin it for everyone else. There are some very sick men on here. It is seriously disturbing, and I have worked in actual high security mental facilities. Is there no provision here for incendiary hate speech? Or even those who use this site for purposes other than community or dating? The hate is so strong here!
My life is a little more strange than most, but I try to go with the flow, and let the world happen to me. I have not been sleeping well lately, so my nights can often be long ones. Last night was the first time that I acutally had a full-night sleep. Today, I'm just listening to the birds sing, drinking my coffee and spending my time around the folks on this site. Whatever happens will happen. I have been feeling very disconnected from myself though.