I get depressed sometimes. I quit doing anything special around xmas about 18 years ago. It seemed pointless, since the kids were all gone, either to college or living with their mother.
My favorite thing to do on xmas day is to go out with friends for Chinese food. My oldest son told me it's an American Jewish tradition (his wife is Jewish), since Chinese restaurants are typically open on xmas.

THe holidays used to be difficult for me since I usually lived far from family or may not have had time off work. Being at work was better than being home alone.WHen I started looking at these days as just another day things got easier.I will be alone on Christmas too but will spend it doing what pleases me

I've been struggling with that already. I do have some family in town, but when my kids aren't with me, I still feel isolated and lonely.

I used to. Then i started shopping to buy myself stuff in all the sales. Eventually that got old, and I developed an antipathy towards crowded places. So, now I just avoid crowded places and the holidays don't affect me one way or another. I still buy myself stuffr, but now I do so online and I don't limit it to the holidays anymore.

I hate it all as its all fake bullshit

Grab a blanket, get some hot cocoa, find a good book, and curl up by the fire place. I hope that makes you feel better.

Holiday depression is very real, and for people without close family it can be especially hard. Why do you feel sorry for yourself? Because you don’t have a significant other? Or is it something else? Sometimes helping other people can be therapeutic for people feeling down. I have suffered from severe depression for years. PM me if you would like to talk more.

I’m single, but I do have my daughter. Sometimes I’d like to feel lonely. What I do miss is adult conversation.