With the latest young white male mass shooter, I started to think about how we deal with frustration in our country (US) and with raising our children now. Which led me to think about how we are disconnected from each other, how we view any emotion outside of happiness as being flawed, and this led me to think about mediation etc. Oh what a rabbit hole I have gone down.
First, as a highly sensitive person who has never been accepted (esp by my family) or has fit in, I find it hard to express how I feel. But anger is rarely one of my normal emotions. I am more frustrated than angry. But I also understand that feelings vary depending on situations.
What I don't get is why we cannot or do not understand emotions and most everything either comes out as anger or indifference. We would rather pull a gun and shoot someone rather than explain our pain, hurt, jealousy, sadness, frustration etc.
When did we lose our ability to feel and express those feelings? Why is it okay to be pissed off but not sad or depressed? Why is it okay to say hurtful things instead of having empathy and treating others as we would like to be treated? Why are we not allowed to show grief when we feel it?
Why is our society medicated and numbing our own selves with various things instead of feeling?
I want answers to these questions, damn it!