Does anybody else suffer from extreme anxiety and depression?

I have been self medicating with caffeine and alcohol since I was a teenager. I didn't know I had it until a few years ago when my shrink at the time said I did. He tried treating me with something called EMD or something like that, but it was useless. It got so bad that I was getting panic attacks all of the time. Going to the bank, panic attack. Going shopping, panic attack. Talking on the phone, panic attack. Driving my car, panic attack. I finally had to stop doing all of these things. I lost my job and it didn't matter. I rationalized that it was ok because I was a "stay at home dad, taking care of my youngest son". And I teach music at night! I'm helping! If I wasn't making money doing this, I would be up shits creek really. Seriously.

A couple years ago a family member suggested I see a nurse practitioner about getting on meds. She put me on bupropion and it worked great for a little while (couple of years), but has slowed down and isn't working quite as well now. The panic attacks are back and so is the anxiety. I'm having one now. Breathe! Breathe!

So how do you handle it?