I'm depressed. Anxious. Hoping to get on odsp. I've applied and been rejected many times. My brain injury gives me short term memory loss and disorganized and increases my anxiety and depression.
I think i may have had several chances at love with decent men but pushed them away. I didn't feel worthy.
I love my two children and live mostly for them. I wonder what an idiot i am for bringing them into this cruel world that will probably die soon from war or climate change.
I hope things get better.
I doubt it.
I lose important things to frequently and despite being poor i have to pay a friend to help me clean.
Life is wonderful and beautiful.
I enjoy much of it.
I just feel like despite my family and friends, i am alone in my struggles.
I want a man, who loves me.
Someone who is kind and accepting of my children and does not boss them or me around.
Someone who won't or abuse me or my kids.
Someone who can trust and be kind.
I do not know what category to put this in.
I feel in pain.
So i guess health and happiness