When I lost my beloved wife of 27 years in Sept 2017,perhaps some depression set in, but I didn't allow me to suffer long, I was late to marriage at 43, so had been alone for many years prior to finding her. We all have coping skills,some more than others,joining a meet up group(found on the internet in your town or city) will give you new things and friends to do them with.

I'm glad you are still with us. I had a time when I was seriously thinking of leaving this world. I couldnt see what my future held because everything I knew up to that point kind of went to crap. The thing that kept me here in this world was, I had a great cat. I was worried who would adopt my cat. I hope that I am never in that state of mind again, but I have continuously had a pet since then. I hope if you are feeling depressed you will reach out to someone, or do something that you know you enjoy so you can get out of it.

I've never spoken to you before, Wayne, but I applaud you're opening your heart to this group. I am telling you that I care very much about your pain and I'm glad you are taking steps forward. I am hoping you continue to find a little more joy and purpose each day.

The death of a loved one is one of the hardest things to go thru in life. Many of us here are living with that pain. It's very dark in the beginning, and hard not to think you can't go on. I'm glad you're still here, and glad you came here to share your pain with those of us who understand. Please keep sharing and talking. This site has been my refuge since my husband past last June. Suicide is permanent, pain can heal in time.

I feel for you Wayne. I wish i could say something wise that would help you. But I'm about the same. Time just goes on.

There is something to the adage ‘time heals all wounds’. Stay positive......