Hi everyone,

So just before last Christmas my marriage failed, completely out of the blue for me, in fact she lost it and did it on a whim. We had been having a tough time in past couple of years. I had a serious medical scare in which she saved my life, it took time for me to recover and had to leave my job.

Made homeless due to our landlord wanting his property back, fair enough and then I lost my dad to lung cancer which again was a side swipe out of no where. My ex had her own back problem and with four kids between us it was mayhem. But we were so close so in love even after 12 years, a marriage that was expected to fail very quickly according to others as I married her after losing my first wife to cancer too.

The night it went wrong she threw me and my kids out on the street 5 days before Xmas, she took all the money we had so I had to borrow to get the kids something. Luckily my kids are really sensible and understood. I thought at the time she lost it that I could walk away and then sort it out but then this happened.

My daughter asked her why she was doing it as she had already lost her mum and didn't want to lose another. My wife replied by saying "I don't care, I have never cared" this destroyed my daughter to a point she is now having therapy. I don't care how angry you are you just don't say that. That point destroyed any chance of reconciliation.

The whole thing was out of character and she has even admitted that she don't it on a whim and never meant it to go this far. Even recently texting me saying she misses her hubby, i clearly miss her but won't go back as I need to put my daughters feeling first. She never ever apologised for that night and what she said.

We are now homeless and in temp accommodation which isn't too bad, I have got a job and in fact even have an interview today for a better job. Kids are happier and that's all that matters. I am finding myself again, yes a cliche saying and enjoying it. The pain is still there and will be for a while, I am not interested in finding anyone else.

The weird thing is that I keep being drawn to looking for someone even though I am adamant I want to stay single for quite a while. Looking at dating sites though I can't believe what women and men are asking for, seems you have to be perfect and have everything. Kind of glad I don't want to get into dating yet.

I don't think I will ever understand why she just popped.

Sorry for the long post but I just wanted to type it out and let of some steam.