I felt this way a lot in my 20s. Hopefully it gets better for you. It got better for me. I find living with a good roommate helps. My roommate left on vacation for 9 days and I realized I don't like to be alone anymore. It was nice for a few days but then I got restless and bored. If you can find one that can be a friend, it can really help. And don't settle for a partner who's not right for you just because you're afraid of being alone. I used to think I was really pathetic because I was single. There's nothing wrong with being single. It gives you time to figure out who you are. And you can do whatever you want. Travel, go explore. I highly recommend staying at hostels when you travel, you'll meet all kinds of cool people and now is the time. There are people I met over 10 years ago while I was staying at hostels that I am still in touch with.

if it weren't for golf i wouldn't have any friends at all.

relax ...let them come to you..

This is something that I've had to deal with since childhood. And I am 56 years old. It was much harsher when I was a kid, and the word outcast was what I've had sometimes was how I thought of myself as.

It took me a long time to fit the pieces together. I've had to think retrospectively, and sometimes it hurts thinking about it.

No, you are not "meant" to be alone. You're struggling, but that doesn't mean you are meant to deal with loneliness. Primates, including humans, are social animals. It takes slow examinations.

I've often found myself to be the weirdo, but I"ve learn partly why. And I also learned that there are many people who embrace it, as you should. Not saying you are a weirdo, just saying that there are some people who like people who are different in some ways. And it isn't something that you should be ashamed about.

I will give you one piece of advice. No matter how you feel, never come across as pitiful or desperate. That never works. Whether you are feeling it or not, when you walk in a place, walk and act with confidence. It will change the way people see you. Do that enough and you will believe it. Attitude can change your life.