Nietzsche said "The advantage of a bad memory is that one enjoys several times the same good things for the first time."
The jamais vu of déjà vu.
@waitingforgodo Déjà vu seems to be more common than jamais vu.
Yes I keep remembering worse and worse things, until I think. "If I was such a jerk back then, am I any better now ?"
The indirect speech grammar is still worser.