Hello! My name is stupid and I thought I would share
I thought she was absolutely beautiful when I saw her pictures online. She sounded absolutely amazing after I read her profile. Her words tugged on my strings. So I decided to say hi with no expectations. In full knowledge that I am agnostic, she decided that we should be “platonic friends” and meet. I hesitated obviously because why would she want to meet with me? When she asked a second time I gave in with great trepidation. I was all sorts of nervous, anxious, scared worried and at the same time uncharacteristically calm? It was as if I already knew her and we were just meeting again after a long time apart.
When I saw her for the first time in person, as she walked in the door of the restaurant I choose for us, I was literally floored. She was even more beautiful than the pictures by far. As the afternoon went on and beauty faded into conversation I felt stronger about her. As every minute passed, jokes ensued, I felt what I thought was a connection.Yea I know men are stupid.
I had to end the afternoon short because I am introverted and my “battery” for being social was empty. I was probably rude. But I knew I wanted to see her again. I tried (unsuccessfully) to build on that night with her, a total stranger online. AKA I blew it. In my heart I’m trying not to be mad as I knew we weren’t compatible from the start. She is a Christian woman looking for a Christian man. I know I was stupid for going out with her in the first place. But she has made an impression on me like no other. I’m not sure if I’m better or worse afterwards. But I decided to share regardless. Because my name is stupid. And I thought I would share
I have very strong beliefs about the insanity of religion. Therefore, I will not date religious men because this perspective cannot be suppressed because of some physical/emotional interest. Being truly authentic to a partner is a value I cherish. And on the other hand, Christians tend to want to fix people ("Save them from the clutches of Hell" )---compatibility on these points would be a requirement for me. Move on to like-minded people. They are out there.
I had a somewhat similar experience !
Except we actually started a relationship.
We live over a hundred miles apart!
Due to her financial situation she and her mother lived with an Ex!
That should have been my first clue she had multiple mental problems!
She would come and stay 10 to 15 days at a time>
We seem to get along as I had never before!
Suddenly I was no longer of value to her!
Then I found out she was taking eight or more medications for various real and imagined mental conditions.
She turn out to be a Manic depressive and Bi-polar addicted to those same legal prescription drug medications.
It has been a year when she had some psychotic relapse and/or break down!
I have not seen or been with her in that time!
I waited a year for her!
I was fooled!
I truly thought she was the ONE!
Do not beat your self up even when it works out, even for a short time it can be wondrous and then so compelling when they are with you!
Never make one a priority, if they do not make you one in their life!
If they can not make time for you, then they never will!