We think, doubt, make and ask questions, research, explore and innovate. That is the way we progress. But, what if you are told not to think? What if doubting or questioning could lead to death? What if your tendency to research and discover is labeled as immoral and offensive?
Sounds like there is too much religion in your life. Its a hard thing to rid yourself of. But please try.
Not in my life personally, but in the world and I have a hard time seeing it ever completely gone in the world.