If you don't meditate you haven't found yourself. You've just been listening to others. True personal discovery requires personal experience and introspection rather than relying solely on external sources.
So you have to look inside yourself. I'm aware of things I did as a child and later a teen that served as knowledge for me to never do them again. This goes back into if you killed a cat, shot a bird with a BB gun, or anything else that might be inside your mind.