I suffer from existential depression/angst. Can anyone relate?
Yes absolutely! As a Christian we were taught this feeling was because we were not ‘home’ and we would always feel out of place ‘in the world’. That kept it at bay for some time but once you realize that is all bullshit then you have to come face to face with the meaninglessness of existence and realize your time is just one tiny blip in the whole timeline of humanity. Makes paying bills and brushing teeth seem like tedious ritual. All I can say is what has helped me and that has been to embrace it. I have been reading existential philosophers and somehow reading the same thoughts that others had all throughout history regardless of their circumstances or time period is comforting. That and I’ve allowed myself to get comfortable with death. Enjoy traditions like dia de Los muertos or beautiful artwork that is dark or melancholy or features the grim reaper or some other allusion to death. I guess seeing the beauty in both life and death and realizing how truly precious each breath and each day really is because we are the only one experiencing this moment we are experiencing has made it sweeter. Pinterest helps too. Having boards for art, sayings, philosophical memes, whatever. Just collecting and piecing thoughts together helps me. Feel free to message me and I can share my Pinterest boards with you if you’re interested. Here’s hoping you find meaning and rest in today.
Not any more life is pointless people are shitty and there's not a damn thing you can do to change it so why try. Life is an exercise in futility the search for meaning or purpose is in itself utterly pointless to quote the"good"book eat drink and be merry for tomorrow we may die
Geeze... i had it bad. Wondering what other people thought. Being overly concerned about nothing. Feeling dull inside. Now that im retired i quit all the meds for depression. It was rough and i still wake up at night but i can sleep till i feel like it and go to bed when i want to. Any pressure i have is because i created it in my mind.
The only way I know how to avoid deepening depression is to maintain my political action to defeat violent theocracies....to seek justice for raped children by jailing 2 living popes. ...to repudiate Mohammed for raping his 9 year old bride on her wedding night. ..to condemn and boycott Israeli war criminals like Starbucks for murdering Palestinians. ...to never give up hope the people will triumph over polluters oil war crime profiteering banksters by replacing them all with green jobs. ...to swim bicycle and make love relieving my pain and memorizing movies and symphonic music overcoming TBI jet engine blast TINNITUS and quiet my mind away from angst to cosmic joy and fragrant meadows
I've been depressed my entire life. I say that with no angst involved. It's simply a fact. Sometimes I love my depression in an odd way bc I'm a creative person and the more depressed I am the more passionate my art is. I always look back at historical figures that clearly had depression and wonder would they have made the same impact on this world if they had been on antidepressents. On the other hand I can't go through a day without wondering about death. The only thing truly stopping me is my lack of religion. This is my one and only life.
I can certainly relate... I had struggles in the area couple years ago. It wasn't seriously bad or anything, but it was there.
I climbed out of it with the help of some thought experiments about not having expectations of how I should feel. I kind of declared how I currently felt as a baseline and not a bad place. Then never worried about the "gap" to normal if it was the new normal. After a while, it just diminished and disappeared. Because not taking temperature of my feelings is also not being done, I have no idea if I am happier these days or just not sad anymore.
I do not suffer from it however have had my severe bouts of depression, The point I wish to make is most of those who suffer this existential depression are indeed brilliant people. It is the fact that you feel with intense belief the reality you are willing to admit to yourself. Most people cover up true feelings with good ole human rational.
This gift of yours is to go deep inside and find that incredible ability you have , that ability to recognize real truth without seeking the run away door, LIke a savant who goes more deep inside than you do and finds that gift, That incredible gift , so rare, that it is not even spoken of.
I’m an no professional counselor—I can only say what worked for me. I read “Help Yourself to Happiness” by Dr. Maxie Maultsby, and practiced the recommended exercise. It was like flipping a switch, with anger, sadness and loneliness flying away, and joy overtaking me. Emotions follow thoughts.
After a couple of decades of living with increasing depression, I think I finally have the right cocktail of meds. Used to be somewhat suicidal and frequently wishing I was dead. I don't have those thoughts very often anymore. I'm generally in a good mood if not actually happy.
That said, I'm still kind of a nihilist.
Greetings: I can relate, but (sadly) I cannot help. There is no cure, no pills, no medicine for this illness (Kierkegaard called it "the sickness unto death" ). The only things that has helped me to some extent is reading some of the existentialist philosophers and writers, specially Camus (The Myth of Sisyphus; The Plague; The Rebel) and Saramago (But he was not, in a strict sense, an existentialist, and I don't know if his superb Novels were translated into English.). Also, watch The Big Bang Theory. (Seriously.) It is the equivalent of Prozac for angst!